mentally unstable

2007-02-19T03:58:00.000+08:00

this song just says it all..

love this version compared to the other(thank u one tree hill)..

anyway..

know when u feel so strongly abt something..

but u strongly dont wanna feel the way ur feelin..

thats how im feeling now..

i know i know sounds confusin..

hell im confused..

its like i tell myself to feel a certain way n behave a certain way

but inside eveything is juz frozen..

oh hell..its nice to feel numb sometimes..

2007-02-12T17:49:00.000+08:00

if its possible to feel a gazillion different things at a time..

im feelin that way now..

its just too complicated to explain..

sorry

2007-02-11T17:01:00.000+08:00

*jeling seh dia*

that was what those iritatin mats i was stuck with said..

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwww

luckily ikah was late so i kena alight at bedok..

Saturday

went for YCP..

was sooo semangat abt goin to the gym... skali..forget shorts...bodoh.. headed to bugis to get my tops..(i love love love bugis streetlah) then headed hm to get ready met ikah at arnd 4plus n went down to town Toys R Us.,wana apply for job.. was like so phew to kno azmil wasnt workin... tho idiot akbar still teased me abt him..
whatever ehh..
met up with shai, masturah n yaz at ben n jerrys

*ikah n yaz talkin bout dunnoe what*

*yazid looks so darn kedi*

*she had to rub it in that she got fudgebrownie*

i was super iritated oredi cos no word from him n kena pick up tickets 1 hour b4 the show..

so when he finalli arrived at 8+

when he said hell reach at 730..

i was havin major mood..

very tempted to get the tickets giv him n go home..

but he was bein very patient n nice so me mellow down a bit
(n i repeat.. A BIT)

signed up for that E2 max thingy at cathay(finally)

then watchd Pans Labyrinth..

n guess wad..i loved it lah..

as unstable as this sounds..i love the fawn..

but i so think perdo shuldv shot the capitan in the head..

as in turn him into a singh n give him a nandek(salah spellin i kno)forehead

went to watch The Illusionist at Lido after that..

was oredi tinkin

"skali they stage the whole death thingy"

n whaddya kno..betol haha..

kinda regretted cos i realli wanted to watch Half Nelson..

but the movies still rocked

*i alwez put the piccies that i look nice in*

after lido we walked back to Cineleisure

decided to hang out at E2 Max..

since he hasnt seen High School Musical..we rented n watchd..

ok he watchd..i kinda tersleep..

*tryn to stay awake but failin*

hung out after that n headed back to tampines for breakfast..

after months of cravin burger king crossainwichs

i finally finally had 1..

but weirdly..i was full even b4 i finishd it..

overall..it was a fun 12 hours..

n on the 11th sumore..*winks*

me n seha were talkin n both of us agree..

wev got gd bfs..n ironically both bfs live in woodlands..

n me n seha live on opposite sides of the road...haha..

*oklah..heres 1 he looks nice in*

thanks for stayin awake n patient with me yest..

i was bein a total PTA(Pain in The Ass)

yet u still tahan-ed the moods and the snapping

its weird..

its almost been 2 years yet it doesnt feel so long..

ok this line is very *phuke n barf*

but

i love you..

dude..(ninja turtle virus)

good luck for ur ippt 2mr..

think grasshopper..mayb cen jump far..

2007-02-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

Its over...and now im sad...

gosh...i cant believe it..

on 7th February 2007..

my life in poly..traveling like a goondu to clementi..

runnin after 154,184 or the shuttle bus like an ass..

goin up the godforsaken hill..

is over..

flying away from here...

Yeah Rite!!

finishd the presentation @ like 4am the day itself

ok ok finishd 90% of it..

thank god ashwin drove..so did the rest in the car..

presentation started late and everyone took so darn long..

people were either psp-ing..sleepin or camwhoring..

ok ok..the camwhore was just me..

*my pushpop obsession*

it matches my blazer!!!

*darned fringe so iritatinglah*

*the 3 cheap labourers from Eagle Services Asia*

lepas(after) the presentation(mine)

went outside to meet the rest n camwhore sumore..

luckily they were doin the same..

*gareth & me*

notice the guy with the cam bhind us

*charles aka the mongolian,myanmar mat/my scandal & me*

*chloe..aka the girl who switched places with me*

had a breif encounter with soppz also..

nwe..lepas itu

me,elf,charles,jie ling, gareth, daniel n yong liang went for lunch

at pepper lunch..hmm ironicle eh..

arrgh..m gonna miss them lah..

ok will update later..

includin my movie marathon yest...

toodles..

2007-02-06T17:37:00.000+08:00

*song of the day*

*richard marx & donna lewis - at the beginning*

yes that song is super ancient but i cnt help but love it.

work at esa too long..now listen to gold 90 songs..

eh at least not 94.2 ok...juz imagine me..

listening to spin or spoon or sum other form of makan(eating) utensil.

its weird not workin..

sure i enjoy the wakin up at odd hours but cmon..

who are we kiding..i already do that..

*Monday*

went to cgh with grandad for his eye check up...

ended up buyin those nutrition bars..

what??theyre nice..esp that yoghurt one..yumm..

went home n tried(keyword tried)

to do my presentation..got as far as the 1st 2 slides...

wound up reading all 3 archie comics i bought/borrowed

overall miss pemalas stayed home n well lets juz say that

payin an xtra 10 bucks for the set top box is worth it..

plus outside is the only place where the set top box has any problems*evil laugh*..

*Tuesday*

woke up at 1...

yes 1!!!..n still tossed n turned b4 realli realli gettin up..

what got me up in the end...

my gdad sayin "tadi pagi atok beli chapati"..

of course miss pakistani aka me shot up

bathed in record breakin time(3 minutes)

n ate the chapati n prata(what i was hungri)

then continued to my dear presentation

juz came back from my run..

gonna eat now...haha...

run then eat..how effective of me ryt..

ah hell..ill go to the gym 2mr..

after that ill b meetin dear shaikhah who has been off radar for so long

beb..this photo is like super ancient lah.....

u better not disappear last minute ah..

if u do i will run over ur boyfriend with his bike

plus...

lacheemi..aka my lesbian girlfriend will b endin her development thingy soon..

yahoo...

i wanna go clubbin again!!

tho minus the drinkin ah...

2007-02-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

Cancer

Cancer, you and Pisces need a protective stone.

Sapphire or Citrine would work fine.

All the signs, all of us, will feel the intensity of the energy coming. Protection is vital for us all.

Cancer's love stones are

*Rose Quartz*

Ruby Crystal and

*Pink Kunzite*

Buy fresh blue berries and eat them once a week, or wear a

*Lapis Lazuli *

close to your throat; either will open your third eye or keep it open.

Kunzite will bring harmony as well as love.

*i love the rose quartz most* but my fav is alwez amethyst.

n me read sumwhere its one of my birthstones also...

alah..all books say different

2007-02-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

*Ngee Ann Poly AT Class of 2004*

had our grad celebrations on friday..pizza!!!!

got loadsa "what happend to u","u look so different" and the typical "nadiah u too skinny" from samay..my lecturer was like "nadiah u dont eat ah??"

n i juz said "sir...4th pizza sir"..haha..padahal i tink it was my 5th slice...

had our last test...wic naturalli we erm discussed...haha

n as usuall...i teleft my stupid shoes in skewl...arrgh..

thank god charles took it home for me

*thanks dude*..

sophan was ther..but well stayed clear from him..

sumhow even when they mentioned him i felt nothing..

went for dinner with my family @ habibie at nyt..

supposed to go jb but mother was tired..

n sanur is pretty ex..so i suggested habibie..

n ok ok i wanted to eat the butter prawns..

sat..was spent at work..can u bliev it!!!

had to go back at like 730 to get debreifed n then

had to train the temp minah n minachi how to

continue on the cell audit project n the critical part management proj..

naturalli they took forever to understand it..

urgh...wanna bash their heads in..

onli got off at like 4 plus/5 n

then went home n out again to run errands..

after which met up with boyfriend to watch the match..

livpool n everton drew*bloody hell*..

but cahill is hot!!!

opps *Sorry garcia*..

today...went to watch multiple personality disorders..

n it rockedlah!!!

i love hossan..tho no no more silly crush on him.

like the one i had in pri/sec sch...haha

ate at han's after that..

mom had the fish n chips n me had the linguine n grilled shrimp..

n yes..its better than pastamania anytym..

ncxt up..titoutao..

dim sum dollies

n kumar the queen!!

now...back to job huntin...

n i dnt know if u can read tis in camp(ill change the template soon oryt)..

nwe glad we spent like more than half the time not fightin yesterday..

nxt sun is a date oryt..since its the 11th(tho ud btter plan)..

*muahhz*

2007-01-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

i luv my mom..

gav me her isetan vouchers so i got meself pretty shoes

n pretty earings..

n eli n matty..whereever in england u 2 are..

i miss u..n thankewww for the necklace..

the girls+emrick n ariel treated me to lunch today..

ordered pizza hut n kfc..

ate so much sia..bt didnt go gym..arrgh...

will update betol betol later...

reports due on friday..yuck

2007-01-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

i cutteded my hair!!!
erm well kindalah..
it looks no different actualli..haha

been tellin myself...after work go gym..
so far..7 days strait..i
didnt go!!!

sunday best..(bein sarcastic here)..
met boyfriend..n no..this time no fightin...
well 90% of the time..
felt nice to juz hang out n talk abt stuff..
realised that its been what 2 years since we 1st met..
awww..haha..
its funnylah..but im happy so sue me :-P

after that kena tolerate khalids fam...eww..
n now im super angry at my phone..
its gone bonkers i tell ya..
all my contacts n messages gone..
only the saved msgs got..n old msgs i deleted are sumhow there..
aka the azmil smses n the ones khalid sent when he kena sueed..
this is when the 100 bucks starhub voucher comes in handy..
tho i want the same darn phone..
only in green!!!

so sedih-ing...today didnt get my lunchtime nap..
although i did get to eat at house of sundanese food...
oklah..not very whoa(rice table still nicer)
act wanted to go fish n co...
but mr azman is very particular bout the whole halal thingy...
so no calamari for me *sob sob*..
mr goh did say that he was gna recommend me for the caas qa tso job!!
hell yeah!!!

im gna miss esa..
tho im gna enjoy wakin up later than 8 am..at least till i get me a job..

2007-01-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

days like today make me glad attachment is gna b over..

stupid males workin there..

sum guy was like "assalamualaikum sayang" n hez like what 50??!..

n it IS rude not to jawab so i went

"walaikumsalam PAKCIK"...translation "uncle"..

the dude was lookin @ me like WDF??!!..

the indon n philipino workers are soo much better..

cant stand the mats there..

but thank god for my laser mouth

i miss the bugger aka my boyfriendlah..

at least confinement he gets his phone n can use his phone..

i tink im gna lie n not go for busu wee's engagement..

dnt wanna see khalids pervy face..

mayb ill bring matt n pretend hez my bf.

haha

gosh atoks brother is such an ass..

complain that mak long was atoks spy durin haj.

tell atok if that wife of his never pray..

hello.. if u go for haj then never pray..y go in the 1st bloody place..

no wonderlah his coat got stolen..

n he himself told mama to curb my pepsi habit..

then go haji n wana bring home cans of pepsi home..

what msia dont sell pepsi isit..golojoh..

hate people goin haj just to have the name "haji"..

then atok shuld put his name as haji*(number of times he been to haj)..

oklah..i wanna watch A New Hope n eat my pizza

tho i tink its weird that when a guy takes my order

he doesnt charge xtra for addin onions..

n wen the girl does she charges..

ironicle isnt it..

then again wic goon asks to add onions to thier pizza..hahaha

speakin of star wars..

i tink its WHACKED that at the end of ep 6 hayden christensen appears

instead of the older vader..

like that why not use ewan mcgregor

over the older obi wan!!!

george lucas is too rich his bcome senile!!!

*wheeeee*

2007-01-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

i wanna eat at ikea!!
ok where did that come from..
the poached salmon darn nicelah.
n iv nver been a salmon person..
n their daim cake..
i mean daim is like heaven in a small red wrapper..
daim cake...yowza!!!
but i i wanna go ikea..im so goin to the alexandra one..

heard the tamp 1 is worse than tamp mall whenever they have sum cartoon performance..
watchin that anthony bourdain thingy n the sweedes realli have the coolest food..
theres this thigy where they put mashed potato on a tortilla a sausage n shrimp salad n the sauce..
they then wrap it up n it looks like an ice cream cone..
actualli i love the whole gettin food from sum stall n walkin n eatin..
like those bazaar thingys..
but im so darn jelak of wade n ramlee burger...n u thought id never say that..
but theres only so much wade n burger one can consume b4 gettin sick of it..

7 more days of attachment left..*sob*sob*

2007-01-24T02:42:00.000+08:00

watchin monster n law...
my gosh..isist juz me or are mothers of guys more syco than girls..
i mean remember sophan..that one ultimate syco mother(sshhh dont tell him i sd that)..
nasib taufiqs mom is pretty kewl..
n how ironicle isit that his bro is best frenz with shana n her husband..
tho its sad me n shalin arent realli talkin..
then again..i got sick of bein part of her entourage..
havin to do things she wants to do..having to subject myself to her criticism..
n her all mighty attitude..
padahal she looks like a darn drag queen..
what..she herself admits it..

yawn...im so nak tido..cnt bliev its onli tues nyt..2 n a half more days of work..
got my cheque today...279 onli..cos 3 days mc..
damn lah..
cnt wait for this attachment to be over..
mom was makin noise abt me wantin to work at changi airport passenger service..
but i was like
at least while waitin for answer from CAAS n SIAEC i have a job that pays well..
n im still contemplating the Army..tho i tink my slipdisc myt affect it..
hmm..entahlah..

goin to the gym 2mr..this time wanna push myself..
at least 45 mins cardio n 35 mins resistance..
n dis time i so sleepin in the steam room..tho i hop i dnt turn into a shriveled prune..
but after that eat where...kfc..haha..xercise like mad woman but after that eat oily food..
bagus eh nadd...

he told me he myt get nyt off on valentines day..
so mayb juz myt see him then..
but sumhow not lookin 4ward to it..
id much prefer the 11th ;-)
haha..our unofficial official date..
he can be so sweet sumtymz..

i love disney channel n boomerang..
tho i find it disturbing that i find myself havin small crushes on the guys on tv..
like nightwing, batman beyond, that dean guy from totally spies..im weird..
nah..im Nutz!!!

2007-01-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

sumtymz im so goondu i amaze myelf..
was waitin for his call n of all times..i was in the kitchen when he did..
n i only checkd my phone like ten mins later..
too late tho..
argh..craplah the handphone ban..
sweetie..if u do happen to read this(since ur room got comp)..
sorry i didnt see the call..mayb we'll talk 2mr..

dammitlah..im 44kg now..argh..i wanna go back to my 42.6kg..
culd b muscle weit tho...
oh who m i kidding..2 days straight of pizza n cinammon sticks..
hmm...then again period coming...explains the food mania..

dammitlah...im so pissed..
both at myself n ocs..
nvm..now i wanna lie down n eat my ice kacang kosong..
toodles..

2007-01-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

my badan sakit!!!
spent like an hour at the darn gym..
ok 2 hours+..
1 hour on the cardio n weight resistance thingys.
tho sum i couldnt even lift..
the towel boy was lookin @ me n probabli tryn not to laugh..
then sat in the steam room n sauna for like half an hour..
if the sauna wasnt super panas i wouldv fallen asleep..
harry lagi bagus..ask me
"nak workout eh"..haha
i was like "nah..wanna play with the weight machine"..
he looks bettter without the blonde hair..

met boyfriend after that n ate at white sands..
he was cravin sushi so had sakae..n after that he got ben n jerrys..
but sumhow peanut buttercup tastes weird..
think im so used to eatin it with fudge brownie..
came over n helped mom write the darn script..
n watchd return of the jedi..

aside frm the typical small arguments n mood swings(me of coz)..
today went well..
hez bookin in 2mr mornin..
but kena confinement nxt week..
bloody hell lah..screw those ocs asses..
n here we both tot cen go chocolate buffet nxt week..

nxt time i see him ill b jobless..well aside frm toys r us..
sumhow..i tink im gna miss school..
but me joinin NTU..erm..nah..
sumhow livin @ the campus is kinda scarie..
n me in university??haha..pleaselah..
im so not uni material..id rather work in a workshop n get promoted.
lets face it..im gd at practica stuff..bookswise..
no way..

ok.enuf rambling..man u vs arsenal..
Go Arsenal/Man U!!!..

dnt know who to support syndrome...

arrgh..so malas to layan sum guys..its like
"so my boyfriend is in ns n i rareli see him..doesnt mean ill go out with any dude who asks me out..im not those girls who needs a replacement guy juz cos myn is in ns.."but then again..it is pretty fun to sarcastically insult em..esp if they dnt get it..oh how stupid sum guys can be..

yawn..supposed to sleep..but cant..2mr workin sumorr..urgh..

2007-01-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

i was waitin 4 chelsea to fite back..
well they did..dirtyly..stupid drogba..
how culd he cause alonso to bleed..
asss...ass..
oh who cares...pool won!!!wheeee
I miss Luis Garcia!!!

2007-01-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

oh my god...2-0!!
i love u liverpool!!

2007-01-20T04:30:00.000+08:00

i miss simple plan...
gosh..think them n the click five are the two bands im nutzo bout..
if they come for concert again...im soo there..
n this time..im linin up super earli..
sebastien is so kewt..swoon...
ok random..
im bloody iritated..think my mom got the
"become a bitch whenever people are at my house" penyakit..
atok come back only her perangai start...
mcm permaisuri dipertuan agong..ok where did that come from..
now she expects taufiq to come over to help her write script..puhlees..
she even asked me to ask the ycp ppl..
malas aku..im not gonna susahkan my frenz for her..

countin the hours till i see the bugger..prob end up hangin at my house..
n watchn the match..
n ill end up cryn cos liverpool lost..
how to win..my baby is injured..

sob sob..
on nvm..got xabi alonso..part time lover..muahahahaha...
hey at least i dnt go arnd callin others boyfriens mine..
n every guy im remotely close to be all flirty with em...eeerh..
cannot handle..
no wonder i couldnt realli find any common ground with her..
juz imagine if we hang out..
think harry is ryt..iv been hangin with too many non mats n non minahs..
very hard for me to get along with minah types..

dammitlah..4 days mc n my body is still dying on me..
how kerapie ryt..arrgh..i feel like togoking all my ubat siah..

2007-01-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

i juz got meself a job offeur...
at the airport...as what..alah..those passenger service ppl..
or as adam calls it..
sit down eat get fat job..
puhlees eh...i tink my attachment is sit down eat n get fat job..
besides..i get to work at airport..wheeee..
of coz ill apply for siaec n caas too lah..
i still wanna be near my engines..n do manly stuff..haha..
yes i am weird..mother juz stated that fact to khalid parents in the morn..
dear me woke up pukin n pukin..prob cos i fell yest..kerplopp down half a flight of stairs..
tulah..eat meds n workk sumore
nwe..went to the doccie again..so in all..i got 4 days mc for this week..
of cos im goin 2mr lah...
tho 2mr is fri..so go back skewl.
heck that..saturdays coming!!!!
yay!!!get to meet whatshisface..haha
yes im finali lookin forward to meeting my...ahem MY armyboy..
i swear his campmates are so gendeng..
cos of sum idiot..they kena hp ban..begedil...
oh nvm..will see him either sat or sunday...
if not..nxt week sudah...

oh oh gdad came back 2dae..got me loadsa nougat..
hehehe..yahoo..
tho i got pissed with uncle iti's iritatin mom juz now..
we were eatin n she was all
"dia(as in me) ada buang buang lagi"..
n she n mom were openly talkin bout my bulimia ryt ther..
hello..i can hear ok..
n hell even if i was bulimic..at least my ass is smaller that ur overcelakked
overmade up..
will probably dress up n wear bling when ur in hospital granddaughter n daughter..
n how ironicle isit that i call uncle iti well uncle..
his wife kak iffa...haha..the things that happen when ppl i kno marry each other..

2007-01-17T02:52:00.000+08:00

watched Forbidden Chestnuts:Memoirs Of A Brokeback Geisha on sunday...
darn funny sia..of coz i had to refrain from laughin at sum stuff...
cos mother was rite next to me..
but still..it was hilarious..forgot how much i love hossan..
that rodney olivero guy is pretty cute actualli
had fish n chips at han's along with their truffle cake..
not bad actualli..well better than too much water in the pasta pastamanialah..
b4 the show i encountered this bitch n a half..
aparantly shez so ignorant she didnt kno they changed the ratin from
m16 to ra18..so her daughter couldnt go in...
thepoor usher was like "u can get a refund"..
yet she was attackin the poor guy..n lagi best she was like " i demand a refund"..
of coz miss cannot shut up me was like.."he said that u could hours ago.."..
haha..the look she gave me was like "how dare u"..
like as if i giv a damn..seriousli pity the usher..thats 1 crappy thingy bout the service industry..
have to serve asses who think the whole world revolves arnd them..
heck that..now lookin 4ward to hossan leongs multiple personality disorder n titoutiao..
think thats how its spelt..

aaanyway..been on mc yest n today..think i wanna xtend my mc cos i still feel like crap..
but nah..think shuld go back to work..kinda miss things there..
god..3 more weeks..exciting..kinda..scary very...saddening..totalli..
hate having fever..achin body..aching head..aching everything..

was thinkin abt it i realised that durin my post sophan time..
i was like sengaje dating other guys n bein intrested in other guys..
jus to try n make him jealous..mak ai...so darn pathetic..
i tink theres a point in time when i was like..
hello..he doesnt wanna be with u..get it throu ur bloodyy head..
being all depressed n tellin the whole world(hopin he sees it)isnt gonna help..
acting like u moved on but contradictin it isnt gonna help..
the best is to get inthrou ur head that the guy u want is so over u..
n that nothing u do is gonna bring him back..
so glad i stopped doin all that shit..
i mean yeah..its blunt n mean..but its the truth..

2007-01-14T04:24:00.000+08:00

*if only things were good for more than 5 minutes*

Happy Birthday Orlando Bloom!!!

well..its like the 13th there..so yeah..

niwe...

tired!!!wrote a long long post abt my week but still kena vet it...

but today was like a roller coaster ride.

went for the ntu thingy with charles n gang..

i realli realli wanna go there..but well part timelah..

went to eat at suntec..wll they ate..i was 2 busy arguing with taufiq..

n in the end..we met in tamp..ate at pastamania..

tho i tink mayb the constant rain is causin the cooks to put in more water into their sauces..

the pizza n the choco mouse was the onli non let down..

went home cos he needed eno n ended up goin mustafa,,

theres another story bhind dat..but wnt get into it..

im juz pissed..

if u want things to be better u gota make the effort n prove that ur all in...

do unexpected things..not wait for a big neon sign or a user guide..

or mayb its a big neon sign..but for sum1 else..

2007-01-10T00:52:00.000+08:00

piccies 1st!!

last pic of the night

rehearsal time

the "how come i dont have punch"photo

the performance

the finale

*fav piccie*

yahoo...
grandad juz called..hell b comin back on the 18th..yay!!
tho amazinli mom hasnt been a pain since hez been gone..
mayb shez like dat cos hez arnd eh..entahlah..

sat was fun..had rehearsal in the moring..
mas, iggy n sue came over afterwards to get ready..
i did the transformation in sue's car afterwards..haha
we all got lost lookin for the darn sia place..
went to changi!!!
eventualli found the venue..phew..
da bdae party was super fun..
mostly cos i spent the nyt with the ycp ppl performin..
n away from him..n by him i mean my bf..
i mean yalah..i missed him n stuff..but i juz felt weird..
i spent the whole day lookin forward to seein him but when i finali did
i couldnt wait to go perform..
alah pmslah..
in the end i felt happy to juz hear his voice
n to have him squeeze my hand n kiss my forehead for no reason
kinda had to lie to him abt adam fetchin me
cos he asked his parents to send me, sara n ella home
bt me n sara both agreed that unless he came along..
we didnt wana susahkan his parents..
anyways
hope shai liked our performance..
cos we sure had fun rehearsin for it..
i know i prob developed stomach muscles from laughin like crazy..
esp the mother dying scene..

sunday morning..at like 7am went to mustafa's with mom,mamat n yati..
spent like 300+..
hey better than the last time they went..900+..
ate at the abm or abn...
i had the kids tissue meal n a paper thosai..
kept makin jokes about me eatin tissue paper..
will upload my tissue prata+ paper thosai= tissue paper piccies later ok..
n i still remember all those times i went umrah n wanted that all i 1 makeup thingy
u know is in this container which can be opened up n has a few layers
with eyeshadow, blusher n even lipcolour..
well mom got it for me..finalli!!!..
tho since i dun even use eyeshadow n lipcolour
(since i usualli stick to the lipstick im usin ill it finishes)
dun realli see the point..but heck that..i got the makeup thingy!!!so kewlness..

liverpool kalah n so did aston v...tho i am shocked baros scored..
heard speculation dat if that arabs buy pool they wanna buy beckham..
so now with all of u people as my witness..i hereby swear..
that if those arab dudes buy
david pussywhipped by his not even half as hot as kewell's wife wife beckham..
i will become a manchester UNITED(not city) fan..
buy their jersey with Christiano Ronaldo's name n number at the back..
im serious..
too bad i hate chelsea too much...mayb if mourinho, drogba and cole leaves...
mayb ill start supportin chelsea instead..
nah man u(although mothers ex husband loves em) better..
2nyt Liverpool faces Arsenal for the Carling Cup..
yes i think Liverpool will lose..
heck..i still love em Garcia especially..

speakin of love.
i LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOMERANG!!!..
they show the funnest cartoons...
from top cat to jetsons to flintstones, classic tom n jerry,
swat cats(who remind me of shai n zul), fantastic max...n so many more
my time cartoons..im in heaven each day..love E!, boomerang..espn duh n star sports..

attachment is almost coming to an end..but i sumhow wna go back to toys r us..
how syco does that sound..
esp since today mr lee said the hr asses dont wanna take anymore temps..
mr lee,mr tan n mr azman all said they'll pay me themselves if i work there..
haha..so funnila they all..
thats y i love workin there..
gonna totalli miss being therelah..
n as much as i miss toys r us..
workin at forum..not realli lookin forward to it..
well mostly not lookin forward to workin with azmil again..
tonight is supposed to be inventory..
wanted to help out at forum
n erwan even asked me to go vivo to tolong but i cnt..
since 2mr workin..

n now im sleepy...
wanted to talk abt sum heart heart stuff..
but malas...

2007-01-05T04:10:00.000+08:00

2006 Part 1

January was my sophan rebound month..
started off the year cuttin taufiq outa my life
concentrated on skewl..well kinda..
told sean to bugger off n kinda sorta dated charles..
haha now that was amusin..
started hangin out with lacheemi again and rekindling my friendship with ikah
well thanks to taufiq amazinli..

February..
super duper fun..
got over the sophan insanity
went for dinesh's ord..
met super cute ord guy...didnt work out..
went to zouk with lach,din and nur..
they tried to set me n nur up..didnt work..
broke my nokia 7260 cos i tripped n fell
guy workin @ phuture tried to do a syco on me..
thank god i got out..
got to know nizam n harry aka hot white shirt guy from zouk..
started job huntin..

March
continuation of juz hangin out with dinesh n lach..
applied for Toys R Us..
went to MOS which was 1 of the funnest times of my life..
got Toys R Us job..
got my beloved Nokia 3250 like the day it came out
Taufiq came back into my life breifly..
went clubbin(wic turned into drinkin session) with harry n nizam..
ended up high n Taufiq took care of me and acompanied me to tamp..

April
started Toys R Us..
fought with Taufiq..
broke the swatch he got me with a batu lesung and hammer..
met Azmil..
won tickets to watch the click five at zouk
met the click five at zouk.(i love Joey!!!)

May
the whole Azmil thing started..
totally fell head over heels for him..
but...
Taufiq came back..
didnt give a damn..
but he kept on tryn n well
guess both me n Azmil knew how it would end..
started redatin fiq..
went on hiatus from workin at TRU...

June
uneventful...started becomin gd frenz with Charles..
Taufiq n me were datin but i still
didnt trust him one bit...
hung out with Azmil the night World Cup started
all the way till the next mornin..
super happy italy won the world cup
turned 20..but was depressing as gmom died like 2 days after my bae..
so didnt feel like celebratin..

This is my malas way of talkin abt how my year went..would elaborate but alah...
juz statin the things that i remember..will write on part 2 soon..as for now..
i need bloody sleep

2006-12-31T00:28:00.000+08:00

this end of the year sucks to the max..

gdads off in mecca so im stuck at home

with a mom who is so self centered

and seems to think that shez the only one with responsibilities n probs

and a maid who is so bimbo

and..

i would elaborate but malas..

i mean ok..i spent the morning

at work then rushed home to come home to one big mess..

kena fix cupboards..carry this carry that..

like thai construction worker aja..

then yet mother says i dunno how to do work arnd the house

hello..then when the maid is gone who cleans the house..

she carry the vacuum head thingy oredi dah back pain...

banyak cantik her face say i never help out arnd the house..

n can still tell me to hurry up n move out..

but when i wanna move to stay at adams she dont let..

urgh cen dielah...

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auntie thinks i should visit motherz ex husband

aka khalid..

no im not callin him my dad..

sure mak long says no matter what hez still my father..

like i say...he just contributed the sperm..

auntie sez he misses me..

hah...puhleeslah..

some things u just know...n i know for a fact that he does not miss me..

he didnt even want me in the first place..

whatevrlah..i know im not goin there or even grandmoms place..

who knows what spell she put on me..

eegh...

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hvnt seen him since he entered ocs..

enough said

wheeze

2006-12-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

urgh...im feein terrible..

been sick since like the msia trip..

was falling sick then..

n now im super gone..

cant sleep

throat hurts, eat n i end up phukin

body achin like mad

and i look like a walkin hospital bedsheet..

aka pale lah..

i hate gettin sick!!!!

seelah...go act hero sumore..

walk in the rain..

see what happens now..

stupid..

plus now..im gonna be super broker every month..

joined boxing and body combat classes..

cnt wait to recover n start goin...

plus i even have access to gym equiptment n a freakin sauna..

n after payin i dont have any money to eat..

so it makes my mission so much easier

balik kampong

2006-12-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

i am off to melaka..

then kl..if u want me to buy stuff for u..

u know where to reach me ait..

hopefully i can find me a liverpool jersey there..

gonna miss u goons..

*muahzz*..

boxed up

2006-12-18T03:51:00.000+08:00

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
From the team that brought you the well-loved "Tainted Flower"

and

"Sketches: A Story of Hope",

Yellow Chair Productions proudly presents its latest offering,

A tale of a maid who gets transported to another world
where she least expects to be but needs to be at.
(yes shai i stole it from ur blog...)

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dont wanna think or talk abt it

havnt had my monthly stay up n cry session in months..

then again with my home bein overrun by kaypo grandauntie n

kids that i love but wayy to tired to layan how to have alone time

hence the take everything out on taufiq week..

seriously was being a bitch n a half this week..things i never gt angry abt i got angry

then again remind me that confidin in charles n eli mayb not the best thing..

both keep tellin me the same things that onli give me more heartpain..

n me..i even let waht they say get to me...n then i take it out on fiq..

he has been real sweet toleratin it as usual..n better than he used to

bt too much can drive a person nutz..

think the only good thing that happend was our sat outin to seoul garden

n the same watch getting thing(yes we have the same watch..but diff colourlah)

im happy he got into ocs..not gna b seeing him for the next few weeks

which is pretty ok since wer not together also..

taking time out

i can just imagine the girls that pretend that hez juz their friend

but so obviously have a thing for him..grinning like mad..

yes we'r takin a break..wanna go after him..

be my guest..

so does that mean im free to date other dudes??..
(look at that line any way u want it..i dnt care also)
(n no i am not in any way intrested in datin other dudes)

will b busy with interim report, n boxing training to update mayb..

n im leaving for KL this friday nyt...will be back monday morning

so till then i prob wnt b bloggin

n yes i joined a boxing class..

both california fitness cos of the gym n facilities n a real boxing skewl..

goin 2mr..1st time..so looking forward to punching n kicking sumthing..

n especially gettin punched n kickd..

camwhore

2006-12-14T05:22:00.000+08:00

*piccie from taufiqs pop..*

UPDATE TIME!!!

I finally have time to update to heres a short one.

last week was eventful

had gastric flu...still have it..urgh

went to taufiqs pop(wic is a story on its own)

met his mom

aparantly made the best marble cake everr..

spent a whole day just on shredding papers...10 trashbags(those big ones) full..

missing rino..

nvm..book out we are eating at family international buffet!!!

and sat..went for ycp photoshoot..

the camwhore in me was super duper happy that day..

gonna miss dear shahdon when he enlists..

anyways..

i know i emailed oredi but well i thought blog skali

cos bodoh me myt email salah..

Syima..we did start off on the wrong foot..that whole fiasco that happend those months back was just plain bodoh and i apologise for my part in it..i hope we can just bury the hatchet(and i dont mean chopping sum1s head off) and move on..i apologise again..especially for anything i said which directly or indirectly hurt your feelings..and lets just leave the past..well in the past..where it belongs..

*yawn*

ok..still full from all the stuff i ate..*went Billy Bombers with shai, shahdon, taufiq, yaz(who i cnt blieve only had coleslaw!!) and yihan(just realised i meantioned everyone acc to alphabet)..and still got meself 2 sinful scoops of Ben & Jerrys..wouldv gotten just one but well..it feels weird havin peanut buttercup without fudge brownie..oh gosh..mayb ill suggest to ESA to get Ben & Jerrys to open there..since rent free waht..ok ok..stop...today goin Rice Table with dear mom, uncle wei jen, uncle allan n auntie ai ling..

haha..still cnt blieve khalid(aka mothers ex husband n the dude who unfortunately is my father)

was jealous of uncle jen..then again..if mom n him ended up together..i would be super happy..

hell get to live in canada..siapa tak happy seh..the food!!!heaven yo..esp the nachos n pina colada(virgin one lah)..n the dudes..oklah..i still prefer spanish dudes...Luis Garcia*swoon*..

NORTON!!!

2006-12-11T00:41:00.000+08:00

*me, yaz, shai, ella n dhaniah*

*me gettin squashed*

*i look so garang ryt*

*hez lucky i didt throw him*

*this shot is so PGL but i want jebat!!!*

Qoute-ing Shahdon..Virus!!!!

2006-12-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

*me & mel*(reunited ex-LPS students)

*the gorgeous gals of YCP*

*Shaiful's Angels(im the lone devil)*

Finally....Yellow Chair Productions!!!!

sick doctor fun

2006-12-03T02:29:00.000+08:00

stupid saturday

had to acompany my injection forgetin aunt to the doc..

low blood sugar or sumthin...

didnt get to go for photoshoot..

but i did promise dhaniah id go nxt week with her

so next week it is..

armyboy came over..

we got stuff from ntuc and cooked..

yes cooked..

he made spagetti n i made lasagne..

tried makin rice crispy treats...it ended up bein wayyy too keras

too much marshmellows perhaps..

urgh..now i feel sick..
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i love the dude..
sure my frenz prob tink "wdf is wrong with u"
well sum of em do..
but like i alwez tell em..
things happen for a reason
and no matter what he is a good guy..
and ok sum guys prob tink juz cos hez in ns im like super loneli..
amazinli im not..ok i see him like what..a few hours a week
but when hez in camp i dont mind juz headin home after work..
i like the "me" time iv got..
or gettin to meet up with my frenz too..
*yawn*..ok ok gota sleep
will update ltar...:

2006-11-26T14:36:00.000+08:00

**Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical**
25th November 2006
2.30pm

im so damn glad i went for Puteri Gunung Ledang..
it was super duper nice..

ok so i preferred the 2nd half of the show
but the whole thing was fantastic

Tiara Jacquelina is super hot..
the Stephen Rahman Hughes guy can really sing..
actin a bit the stiffla..
n the guy playin Adipati..is from 4U2C!!!
my gosh..
n i love his voice too..

n i just wanna state how i tink Hang Tuah is such a goon!!!
i mean..marry the Sultan sudah..
he already killed Hang Jebat cos he was told to..
n Jebat was onli avengin the dudes "death"..
n now..play out his 1 love..cos duh Sultan..
stupid horny ass..
well his son is cute tho..
i mean in the musical lah..

but the story is sad..the endin esp..
its like ur hopin Tuah would arrive at Ledang in time..
but u know its like so not happenin..
but u still hope..arrgh..if Taufiq wasnt arnd
i would have started tearing like durin the "breakup" song..
im such a sucker for sad musicals..
Les Miserables i cried..
all 3 Chang & Eng i cried..
even Sound of Music i felt sad..
haha..im nuts ..

nwe..ran in2 Shahdon n Shai..n me Shahdon n CT went to steal photos
cos didnt get to go for autograph session...*sad*
saw Khairudin Saharom n took piccie with him..
ok suposed to take a pic OF him for Ella but alah..
since hez standin nxt to me..ambil ajer ah..hehe

went to Vivo with fiq, ct, dhaniah n zul..
met up with adam n wati..
damn fun..realised how we are all interconnected it diff ways..
or by diff things..
went huntin for atm like crazy people..
n eated at Secret Recipe..
had Ben & Jerrys..fudge brownie n chocolate peanut buttercup..
yes i kno iv got like 2 tubs at home*thankeww moms*
but hell cnt help it lah..

onli got home arnd 11-ish(so much for my 9pm curfew)
n iv made a vow to agree to goin for any musical my mom wants to take me to..haha..

dhaniah,zul,me,ct & shai

Adipati, Hang Tuah n Tiara!!!!(PGL herself)

me(polka dotted goon for the day)
n the future ocifer..i mean officer

me n Khai..ignore the face...
i realli needed to go pee lah

2006-11-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

Supermalas at work no
yesterday was super fun
went to toys r us after like forever
gosh the place has changed so much
But one thing I was so glad about
Azmil was NOT arnd
Don't think I wouldv wanted to see him
Oredi see his pic in lans friendster pics I get minor heartpain

Dnt get me wrong
Im not still into him
But the crap that happened was well crap
N the feelins I had with him was way diff than taufiq obviously
But it was those like summer romance thingys
Nice while it lasted but will ultimately end

Still I enjoyed the movie sessions where we would steal each others food
He would steal my shawl cos it got too cold
And hangin out will the wee hours at places I rarely hang out at

Sorry fiq
Me talking bout this will prob piss him off
But he has nothing to worry about
I know hez worid
From getting mad cos I said aermy was cute
Getting a bit edgy when I mention my guy frenz frm work n stuff
Telling me abt the horror breakup stories his bunkmates kena
He says he trusts me but cnt blame him for still bein worid
But I dnt see the point of me being unfaithful
I hated it when it happened in sec 4

N when I did it to eman n ammar I wasn't proud of it
So no even if we had a fight n u went away for months
N azmil suddenly wanted to be with me
I prob would tell him to get lost
Well I would stay frenz with him but nothing more
Thank god he doesn't try to control me or anithin
Tho I find myself juz runnin it by him if im goin out with guys esp
At least he knows

If other goondus wanna say im a flirt then go aheadlah
Aniwe me n rino then went to makan at billy bombers at the new cathay
Had the same old thingy again haha me what
Then I was craavin ben n jerrys so had a sinful 2 scoops of fudge brownie n chocolate peanut buttercup

Still dunno wic is better
Eatin ben n jerrys from the tub or in the cone
Wdf..cone..definitely
Nxt time
Im putting both choco sprinkles, nuts and choco fudge on it
Im patiently awaitin my darned pay

I need money godaammit
Mr liu suggested that he talk to my hr guy abt transferring me to the shopfloor
Ok as much as im dyyying to be there
I love my area
I love being soooo neaar to the cnteen
And I love sleepin durin lunch
And I want them to keep me around after grad
Although I am goin to apply for that SIAEC Non Destructive Tester job
But 'there a Destructive tester job available???hahaha
I wish

End of the month coming
Yahoo
Chocolate buffet at swissotel here I come!!
100 more buckaroos into my psp fund
gonna get meself the white psp
since mamat has black
then can transfer all the mind your language episodes

oh blimey!!

Arrgh I love that show
N if giovanni really exists now n is my age
I would soo have a humongous crush on him
Saw that episode the "queen" was in
N he was dressed like a mafia guy
So darn kewtlah
N Danielle is damn cool
Esp when she constantly slimes that Swedish bimbo..

Ok people
if u know of any halal n pretty nice makan plces
In the east/central area do tell me..
My dept wants to go makan nxt week n we'r sourcing for a place
So if u know of aniwher to go tag me ok
Or email pc_gurL11@hotmail.com

As much as I want her to be happy
1000+ bucks on phone bill is terrible
ok so mayb she has found herself love n shez happy and that's good
but please don't go around complainin that uv got debts
this n that
but spend that much on calls n smses
like wdf
my bill highest 200+
n that’s with both handphoness
I give uplah
I just don’t want her to attack me for no reason
U may think that the entire world just revolves arnd u but guess what
It doesn't

Oh well at least she isn’t weighin me anymore..
Tho if she knew I was 42-43 she would flip
But considering the asian BMI
Im just nice
Cos I tink asian is lowered by like 2
N my bmi is 17.5
Normal BMI is supposd to be between 18.5-25
If lower by 2 for asian
Its 16.5-23
So im fine...HAH!
To think she wanted me to be like ...
Mampos
Urgh
Denial
To go MOS tonyt anot
Malas actually
Screw it lah..
Gonna go tamp..get meself my bagel
Murtabak and ice cream..go home n sleeeeeep..yawnz

2006-11-20T02:23:00.000+08:00

him fiddling with his dog tags and his burger..check out the cheeze n the sup..like no diff

im so greedy arent i

my burger..looks darned good

so what i planned didnt realli turn out like i wanted..

had to minus out a few things but it was still super cool..

i had to run arnd like goondu..

get the strudle..

went to clarke quay to get the fish n chips n

failed terribly at hidin the fact that wer gna take a cable car..

it was still a success..

ate at billy bombers.. we both had burgers wth out own toppings..

i had chicken with onion rings and american chilli..

he had beef with egg, jalapeno peppers n melted cheezee..

n the cheeze...

i tot itll be on the burger but noooooo..

it came in a soup bowl!!!!!!!

of course i stole some..ok ok a lot..

hope i get my pay 2mr..can go eat again ;-)

hez like 3 weeks away frm pop-ing..wanna go but well..

work.. entah..see how things go..

i miss him..but oh well..ill survive..

never thought id be this in love..

but im happy..

sure we alwez bicker n have fights that last for like what 5 minutes..

but its alwez abt sumthin stupid..

n after that we're fine..

all the big issues..

wev talked it throu n well nothings perfect..

but he knows i wnt ever be that girl who dates or fool arnd with other guys n i have faith that he wnt do the same..

if he does..ill kill him..

haha..nolah..

like i said..if he wants to b with me he will..

if he doesnt i wnt force him to stay..

i will now leave u with words said by Giovanni Capello (MinD Your LanguaGe) "Santa Maria!!"...
b4 meetin him

the cable car...at mount faber

the jewel box...kinda..

us.....

2006-11-13T01:58:00.000+08:00

my favv piccie of the nyt

saturrday

invited sum of me frenz over..

was gna cencel cos tok was in hospital
but felt bad cencellin..
but was glad i did...had loadsa fun..
charles came over..aslam..
ycp ppl..
well mainli zul,shai,shahdon,yazid n yihan..
stayed n played ps2,wolf game n ate till arnd 9..
shahdon,shai n zul went off for a movie n yihan went home..
fiq was supposed to go his aunts bt stayed in the end..
til like 12..both him n yazid were hooked on fifa07..
adam sent em back afterwards..
oh yeah n ika came too..
the funniest thing ..
yat said ppl he knows who kno me tink im a flirt..
well i tink the few ppl we mutualli kno are like the former gps ppl..
u kno those hu never bothered bout me when i was the former fat me..
suddenli loose weit n "hi nadiah..cani have ur number"..
yeah ryttttt

got pretty upset wth fiq over sumthings..
as relieved as i was..
i felt a bit wdf..
i mean..this whole 2 years..
bsides the whole goin out n hangin out with charles(ok i liked him then)
thing n the whole
"oh im goin home ah sori cnt meet"
padahal go watch poseidon with azmil n go home at 5 am in the mornin
thing..
iv never once cheated on two or 3 timed him..
n well if i did..i woud sumhow pecah lubang myself..
things are great now..
n he was tellin me that 111106 will be our special day..
awwww...
sumtimes i wana get mad also cannot..i juz love him 2 much..
hez just so well..taufiq..
honestly dnt care wat others say abt us..
im happy so sue me..
im a boring,conservative(well kinda) gooondu..

me and him....

fiq,me,ika n yat (taufiqs usin my gdads kain pelekat n songkok!!!)

the guys playin wolf..minus zul

charles, aslam n yazid..amused over well..sumthin

2006-11-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

this week rocked balls...

monday had a date with seha..
ate at s-11 n got to gossip bout whats been goin on..
wanna go back to TRU so much but forum has changed aparantli
sucks that so many ppl are gone..
onli old staff left are ppl like sulaiman,lan,seha,ct,azmil,linda
oh gosh..tink thats all..damn sad siah
tuesday...ikah n me hung out..
wed..met up with shai n hung out/ate @ airport..
thurs..cnt remember what i did..
oh yeah go hm n sleep..

friday..came superlate for class haha..
then supposed to go marina south for that steamboat thingy..
but me n charles werent realli up to it..
he didn want seafood n me i didnt wanna travel too far..
so we went marina sq...
walked arnd like goondus n finalli settled at "Changing Appetites"
from the time i saw
"Fish & Calamari" on the menu i knew i was gona order it..
wanted the huge choc drinks but decided against it..
oredi planned on gettin secret recipe cake..
hung out as esplanade after that..
me n sida bought nescafe coffee frm 7-11..
it wasnt a caramel frapp drink but well 2 dollars for 2 drinks was fine with me
it was fun
tho armyboy was upset that i didnt msg him for a whole week..
esp after our small fyte..
other than that..fri was nice..
liked hangin with my classmates...

my stupid curls gone oredi..hence the muka boring look..

my choco indulgence wic was eatened by me, sida n charles
it was total guilty pleasure

sida n yong liang..waitin n waitin for their food

my fish n calamari...sooo damn nice!!!!

charles's dory...he was xpectin sumthin else tho

2006-11-06T01:50:00.000+08:00

44kg...so mom is pretty happy with me
guess whatever spell khalids mom put on me is gone eh..

busu smsd askin if i wanna go to khalids place for raya..
hell even if he wanted to give me 1000 bucks for raya..no thankeww
eeeeeeewwwwww...
again..he isnt my father...hez jus contributed the sperm...
what..not as if he was around what..
tink pak long was more of a dad to me..

speakin of wic..went to the 3 kuburs today..
nenek's then pak longs n then noyangs..
kena attack by kengerra..or isit kerrenga..
entah..i noticed(during the fort canning trips with soppz)
that i alwez kena attack by ants but mosquitos leave me alone
weird ryt...

anyway..armyboy is away for field camp..
he actualli got realli sick last thurs n got out for a while b4 bookin in friday...
so we had dinner at fish n co that nyt..
i do miss him..but its not the "urgh stupid f-ing army...im gonna die"
kind..im actualli ok with him being gone n stuff..

he comes back fri..n will b arnd for my raya gathering saturday..
so he'll get to meet charles..haha..n ashwin!!!
gota restrain him from stranglin ashwin tho..

n charles n i both agree..dont invite sean..
gosh still remember last year..
didnt get to prevent him frm cmin.
n when he did..
1)he was being his "im better than all of u cos im eurasian n my dads sum big shot at SIAEC"
2)he kept dissing charles n his choice of army over airforce..fine im biased towards charles since i had a thing for him then but hell i tink the army is betterlah..
3)after buyin food..n gettin the stuff ready..he was following me arnd the darn kitchen like sum lovesick puppydog...boleh mati yo..
got lots morelah..but ultimateli i wanted to take my lightsaber n hit him on the head..
oredi when both he n taufiq were paintin my place n when they came when nenek passed away..almost got war between those 2(daytona match)..juz imagine if both came for raya..
plus got charles around(tho nothings goin on lah)..
i dont even wanna kno wad would happen..

i was gonna invite sophan..but nah..besides hez got his dance performance..

oh yeah n speakin of performance..i got the tickets for puteri gunung ledang!!
goin with ct...aka taufiqs sis...
dhaniah n her bf probabli.
n my other lesbian gf...lyn!!!
yay...
tho i wish armyboy could go..
oh well..

ok..me gota sleeepppp now...
got a date with seha 2mr...
gosh i hvnt seen her in months sia..
arrgh..i miss my toys r us people!!!!!
esp erwan, ayam, azhar, vic, mark, azmil, ct(yes even with her nagging), kak zalina, all the other crazy people that work there..
i miss nightstack..sharin cab home..
saturday late night movies...followed by supper at mc cafe..
tho the last time i did that was erm...oh yeah..poseidon..
i wasnt even payin attention..
juz checkin out the hot guy(he was in grind!!)
stealing food from azmil..n tryn to stop him from stealin mine..
n constantli checkin if liverpool won the FA cup anot..
was it FA??entah eh..oh well..
i just miss em lah..but if i go back i will diee man..dieee..

argh...2mr work!!!!
nvm..
4th of feb habis..
4th of feb habis..

n i seriously think my course sucks..
dahlah so hard to get in..12 points siah..
then nak pass pun susah..
its tru about np..
gettin an A means havin to realli semangat to the max..
haha..no wonder i onli get A for the few subjects i like..
how i got an A for engin maths 1 also im still wondering..
then again..wic goon passes the maths based subjs..
but fails maths...haha..that would be me!!!..
oh heck that..im a confirmed graduant..
must start making my suit..(n yes i mean the guys suit)..
im graduating "click five" style..(",)

2006-10-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

me & armyboy...
arshad &hazim..
me & adam..bored @ nek busu's house

Garcia scored!!!

against Baros's team *sob*sob*

i wanna eat at fish & co..

and i want another esprit top..

and more shoes..

yes i know wadever im talkin abt is irrelevant n random..

but who cares..it is my blog...so :-P

2006-10-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

huzaifah now only has eyes for mamats psp..
very sad..no more...
"aunty nana mana gameboy"
miss watchin him play with that gadget.
people push him n he can still lie down n continue playin
but i didnt dare let him play..
later his other cousins wanna sibok..

ok i admit im soo biased..
i only layan kids i like..
but i noticed..the kids i like..come from parents
i grew up playin with
kak nana,abang zul, cik leman..
omg..i love arshad n hazim
those 2..play need for speed..
arshad cannot loze to hazim...
play battlefront n they acualli shoot their own people!!!
theyre like me!!!onli i do it intentionalli..
but got irritated when that indon irritatnt came
ok so her uncles r super nice..
n her dentist uncle gives me cartoon toothbrushes
but she is the brattiest of the brats..
she actualli juz yanked the controller from hazim..
i dont care i told her to return it to hazim
i mean..hello..banyak cantik muka kau main ambil ajer controller
her mom can get angry..i dont care..
bully my cousin n u get it..

overall raya was good..
went to pray at toa payoh..
love the whole sembahyang at padang atmosphere..
not under block..
sent the kuih i made to armyboy along with the letter..
haha i almost panicked cos i got scared that
his mom would find it instead
managed to salam gdad n mom n give em money
went to gmoms place with adam..
thank god managed to escape b4 khalid came..

of coz i didnt eat a thing untill kak nana came..
sambal goreng pengantin!!!!
i was like in heaven..
the beryani atok cooked finished super fast..
then again..it was super duper good..

atok went to melaka cos his bro in law died..accident
thank god his sis is ok..
tho its one of the sis hez not close to..
dont tink iv even met her b4..

today..mrs foo came..
i swear..she gives me more money for raya
than my aunties from the 1st day combined..
i got iritated when that cik tahir came..
the goon doesn see me ever n suddenli
nadiah u so skinny now..
last time so fat
yati also same..
for one thing..hello that pic..blardie sec 1!!
n yati..fat?ur jokin kan??
has he looked in the bloody mirror..hes not slim either..
i tink suhaimi yusof b4 slimmin down looks thinner.
n no1 is like ur son..
he sumhow got two times bigger than last time..
n my mom actualli got angry he said tat..
shez pissed that people keep sayin i lost weit..
hello i did..
n the thing is the 1st pic they see is her old grad pic..
n that pic n the me now..is like 20 kg worth of diffrence...
stupid kerazee people..

oh n i tink saturday kena postponed to sunday..
i wanna spend saturday with armyboy..
hehz...
my gdad asked me about my frenz cmin over..
he likes em sia...
n well hez never liked my friends so tats good..(",)
n he approves of taufiq so thats even better..
miss him wen hez away but that makes meetin even better...
all those stupid squabbles that i love..no big issues...
n his toiletbrush head..hahaha...

Mak oh Mak..besok Hari Raya..eh salah...today!!!!

2006-10-24T05:54:00.000+08:00

Hahaha...
sorri...my mom took out all the old raya tapes..
now iv got all the old school Raya songs in my head..
Feminin..4U2C...Aishah..(for those hu remember these ppl
this years raya prep was great..
all the kuih are nice(tested by me...duh..haha)
the food cooked turned out great..
i ate like 5 pieces of chicken...so duh..
n well..i love my clothes...temped to alter the purple one tho..
itchylahhh...
but no..shall leave it..
minus armyboy havin to masok kandang 2mr..
its been good..
N plus...no more drama..haha..

anyway to one and all MUSLIM FRIENDS...

Selamat Hari Raya..

Maaf Zahir Batin..

ps : classmates and frenz..this sat/sun(pending mother's confirmation)afternoon..you are invited to my place..to eat food(not cooked by me dont worry)..kuih and hang out(people like charles and ash would know what im talkin bout)..ps 2 will be involved naturally...and the possibility of orderin pizza is indeed very big..n no..this year..no sean!!!hehz..remind me to talk about what happend last year...love sick puppydog..muahahahaha...*rolls eyes*

2006-10-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

tired!!!
full!!
iritated!!

wake up at 11 am..to my mother makin noise about my skininess..
mental i tell u..
then had to go buy her phone for her..thank goodness armyboy helped out there..
but well gotlah..a few squabbles here n there..
went all the way to woodlands to get the phone n back to tamp..
then changed to go for harry's bdae..
supposed to mt armyboy n his fren at 715
@ seletar but armyboy said later
so i met matty n eli..n we went shoppin..
ok they went shoppin for me..
got me this nice cropped pants from fox..
n the cute pumps iv been in love with..
saw this pair of wedges
but cannot wear..
elephant feet..
armyboy brought his sis!!so anger at him subsided a bit..
party was oryt..but got iritated at a few tings..
im convinced its pms now..
would elaborate bt now im tired...laterlah..

miss armyboy

return of the jedi..

2006-10-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

a bloody engine fell off the stand
or the crane or sumthin just now..
n of all times.. the GM of Pratt n Whitney was there..
but i tink was in the MD's office..
if he find out...
mati ESA saw the damage throu my window
hpt rosak..
high pressure turbine
thats a lotta money
heck 1 bloody bolt costs thousands already
there goes the 4 months bonus

cabotted at 12
ashwin sent me n dennis to my place
b4 that he again was all "u lost a lotta weit ah..
but at the expense of sumthin"
i mean like hello..
stop checkin out my freaking boobs can anot..
he is freaky siah..any girl he want to try chance..
still got cheek to ask i was ever gonna go out with him..
n when im ever gona wear bikini..
not in front of ulah..
the rest of the guys i dunn care..
sophan batch also..cos they dnt see me like tht..
i like that they see me as a guy..
wonder wat his gf would say if she knew

i had fun with the class..
charles..as usual..
tryn to iritate me or kacau me..
gareth threw temper tantrum when he found out bout fiq
elf.."any cute guys at esa??"
daniel..4 thousand dollar watch goon..
in class..sleep
watch bleach
psp
play game on my ngage
tutorial..copy
duh..no biggie what..
since all the tests "open book"

met armyboy at like 8-ish..
b4 that met aermy!!!
hez in da same company as taufiq but diff platoon..
so kewl..
n hez still as cute as ever..
id kno..he was like a fav among the girls at lps..

we had dinner at salihin..
i wanted prata but in the end we ate like 20 pieces...
at least felt like 20 pieces..
had seafood..
n seriously it was all seefood..
no ayam..

had the sambal fish(whole goddamm fish)
sotong char kway(as alwez)
butter prawns(shouldv gotten cereal)
nasi goreng seafood n
otah2..

tho the one who wanted it didnt finish lah..
i was the one who ate more(what else is baru)
n he can complain i too skinnylah..
93.8 pounds yo!!!(my weighin scale gila oredi)..

this weekend..mati..
sat kena overtime then go geylang but me n armyboy bajus
then get harrys bday prez..
go for harry's birthday thingy n then mayyybe
lacheemi's deep thingy..
i do wanna go..
i miss her n her doggies
but arrgh..travel from yio chu kang to tanah merah..
??????????how??????????
sunday.. go for silender n jess's deepavali thingy..
n try makin those choc cornflake thingy
i finished the entire botol already..
*whoops*

Food!!!

2006-10-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

nasi goreng seafood(halfway eaten okk)

butter prawns(n i oredi ate like what 4)

fish(havent kena attack yet)

char kway(left 2 after like 5 mins)
n 2/5 of the otah2

2006-10-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

in love with my job..
got a new project to do today..which may require me coming down on weekends..
but i wnt get paid xtra what..
or will i??
oh well..hu cares..

classes start tomorow...bugger..gota travel all the way to bloody clementi all over again..
wait..that means i can take 74 n 88 back!!!!
woohoo..
i miss aimless bus rides ..
super long ones with the akash bunch in year 1
tho i dun miss runnin after 23 so that im not late for class...
n then runnin after 154 wich i usualli miss
n havin to take 151..
or bein stuck in both 28, 23 n 154 with hafiz..
so tempted to skip class siah
but no...
mr liu ordi sd im doin well..dun wanna lose my AD..

im gonna graduate!!!
oh no..that means no more lunch at Megabites!!!!
no more bbq chicken pizza,sweet n sour chicken rice, chicken cutlet..
BROWNIE!!!
no more hangin out at al ameen makin fun mats..
no more playin at the arcade at bukit timah plaza or pool at beauty world
sob sob

moms operation went fine..
she was stayin at the a1 ward..
damn kewl get own room..
but i still liked my stay..
at least the western food was halal..

2006-10-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

I LOVE ALEX!!!

n wdf!!choose chris o donnell!!!!

hez well chris o donnell!!

haha juz bcos same bdae as me i like him more..

im so dead at work..

finished like a whole weeks worth of work in one bloody day..

oh well..2 days of slackin arnd since logu isnt arnd..

pay day..

then 2 days of workin..

n nxt week..Hari Raya!!!yahoo!!!

sambal goreng pengantin, ayam masak merah,

kuah lodeh n kek lapis!!!!!

ok..hungry again..

Second Hand Goalkeeper

2006-10-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

1stly
me n armyboy wanna wish Ella
Happy 20th Birthday!!
welcome to the old people club..muahaha..
i love this weekend..
went to geylang yesterday..
got baju for me n fiq..
n overload of fried food..
wade,burger,samosa,cheese sausage, tako yaki
ice cream..
yes i ate all that..
but think it was cos of sadness..cos

i didnt buy the baju i initially liked..

yati was so intent on buyin it..
so i got the other pattern..
n that one..the s is still big on me..
so had to send for alteration juz now..
n ok ok i admit..
im gonna get another one..
ok ok two..the blue kebaya thingy in
a red/green
guys baju kurung!!!!
what??!!
i love the guys one..

yes i know i kerazee..
armyboy agrees totally..
speakin of which..
5 more days..yeah!!
tho i kinda like him bein in camp..
im serious..
n we still fight thank god..
haha..us not fighting is just sooo wrong

ARrgh Vaughn died!!
n I love Chandler n Rachel..
should get that stop smokin tape for taufiq..
he already is a woman what..;-).

drunk & delusional

2006-10-14T08:38:00.000+08:00

stupid sia armyboy
hiz bunkmate is nurul maideens boyfriend..
but he doesnt wanna ask the guy bout jonathan leong!!
instead ask bout gale..
then again can also..
shez pretty hot..

next week friday classes start..meaning
SOCCER!!!
tho i will so stay near ppl like dan and charles
charles was like "wdf" when i told him wad ash said..
we all came to this conclusion..
dprived lah..
hez latchin himself to that new temp girl..
good luck to her

uncle et n kak iffa(she wnt let me call her auntie)
have a baby boy!!!
so kewl..
tho i tink danial is the cutest..
esp his excessive usage of "expecto patronam"

realised that armyboy n nazir went into ns at the same time..
yes nazir with the pecs n the butt..
haha..
secondary school crushes..
mayb they kno each other eh..
hell fiq seems to b meetin ppl that know ppl he knows
small world..

its freakkin amusing..
and both me n armyboy are thankful..
he managed to dodge a bullet..
he grew up(partially),
made a decision n walked away

and armyboy loves me..
(tho asses like danny think hez still da same)
puhlees..there are other girls that wanna b with him
yet he chose me..
doubt he'd do that if he had other options..
thank god for ppl like eli n charles
tho its funny cos i dated em b4..
he can iritated but im laughin at how merepek it is..

i need sleep now
goin to geylang with piper(shaikhah)
*hops around*
what??
cannot miss my fellow charmed one isit..
already i havent seen my lesbian partner in months..
Lacheemi!!!!
where r u??!!!

2006-10-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

check out these upcoming games..

im so gonna be broke..

http://www.gearsofwar.com.sg/

&

http://www.ea.com/nfs/carbon/us/

damn dunman sec was featured in the news..

something bout indoor sports centre..

whateverlah..

stupid edelweiss still there..hairstyle never change..

i juz miss Mr James, Mr Chang , Mdm Zalinah and Miss Koh..ooh n Miss Sim too.

but theyre all gone..so no point goin back there..

notice..they all taught me subjects i got A's for...oklah just for my beloved History,English n D&T
..
me gettin A's for Chemistry n Maths is a huuuge joke..

and who could forget Mrs Ng...

and the dreaded TAF club..

tho i never even went for 1 session..

sec 4 was diffrent though..

she was tryn to make me eat more then..

as Will Truman would say..

how ironicle..

2006-10-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

i love having money...
bukaad at fish n co on monday with yatee frm ESA..
shared the seafood platter(calamari!!!!)
and that hot fudge cake..
oh my godlah..heaven to the max..

went to jb with adam on tuesday to check out the kuih
bukaad at kenny rogers and of all things the waiter flirted with me..
reminded me wayyy to much of azmil..
n of all things i forgot to get a socer ball..
wic was aim number 2 for goin jb..
bodoh..

annnyway
my poor throttle is in in the hospital...
meaning...
i sent my hp to nokia storelah..
upgrade software...
tho when my baby keluar kandang
he said he'll help me get a new 3250..
of course im not gna let him pay for the whole thinglah..
u guys knw me..
not the kinda girl who expects guys to pay for me..

like juz now sum fren of danny's asked me out
n volunteered to pay, fetch me n send me home..
think he expected me to like totally agree when he said he'd pay..
and that he had a car
hello..i can afford to pay for a movie n dinner myself ok..
n public transport is fine with me..
hate guys who think just cos they have a car theyre mr wonderful..
puhless..i still like my biker guys..like khai, fazli n akash..
sure it not as safe..but dont live unless u take risks ryt..
thats it..payday..go for practical again...

nwe..cen use my pay to buy the phone..since its onli 300 bucks..
n cen concentrate on the ipod fund after that..
esp since raya comin...

armyboy is doin ok in camp..miss him..
hez oredi booked me the nyt he books out..
n the nxt weekend..

mom tinks i should jalan raya with the ex loyang ppl
n bring him along(to show off)..
haha puhleeslah..
cnt b bothered..ill prob go..
hang out with ppl like fir, bhad
n the other guys..
the girls will b 2 busy tryn to compete with one another..
yuck..

2006-10-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

my mother is weeeird..

she made me weigh myself in front of her tadi..

n checked my BMI for me..

thank god i was still stuffed with food..so my weight was like 43..

lied n said i was 152cm..

n my bmi was 18.7 or sumthin..

she made noise naturalli cos 18.4 is like underweight..

can die u kno..

its fastin month..n im like miss dont eat sahur

cos i usualli eat at like 2 am or 3

n i run like every single day..

she bloody bought a book on bulimia

n was preachin to me on the effects of bulimia..

hello..that was what..4 bloody years ago...

im way over it oredilah.

can die siah..

wheres fathrul when i need him..

2006-10-08T02:45:00.000+08:00

damn my long arms
went to geylang with gdad n adam..
was soo happy cos i was gna get meself that kebaya i fell in love with
sekali kan...
the baju was
a)loose(n size xs lagi)
b)the person selling was even worse than hirman on his bad day..
c)the sleeves too the short..
i was like wdf...
shuldv gotten those indon kebaya thingys..
but theyre sooo not me lah..
i did see a nice silver baju kurung tho..with black lace n stuff
but nah..
when i go jb with adam n tok to get kuih cen check it out..

imagine the shock on my face when i looked at the weighin machine

42.7kg...wdf..

i havent been that low since sec 4 lah..
m i happy..hell yeah..but problemlah..
my giordano jeans loose..
my levis..loose..
my pants loose..
skirt..
dun need to say lah..
but on the brite side..i can use my old sec 3 n 4 bajus
without the fear of bein referred to as fat..

my mother powerlah..
wake me up earli..
tell me to kemas the study room..
i went on a cleanin frenzy..
then skali never use..
so i usela..daily workout..
i kno i shuld start running again..but well..
for now..
practicing my old taekwondo kicks and taejeuks will do..
gonna play soccer 2mr b4 buka
yahoo!!!!
n NO i do not run like model ok..
bunny hop at least sumthin
i still like the penalty shootout..
the whole "pretend the ball is mr bernard/beckham"
or
"pretend the ball is ur dad"..
tht one..totalli rembat..

cnt wait..
can make full use of my booties..
gosh..sumtymz i wonder if i was supposed to be a guy..

n yes..
that is the Backside opps i mean Backstreet Boys..
Brian's voice is juz so darn soothing..*swoon*
tho i still love JC Chasez..
who cares if hez gay...
i mean..have u seen my bf??
(dont tell taufiq i said that)

2006-10-07T10:28:00.000+08:00

update!!!

Tuesday
~~~~~~
went to jb but my darn cheque didnt clear until we gt ther
so
1)cannot buy secret recipe cake cos cnot pay by visa unless over 50 ringgit(wdf)
2)cannot spend money unless i pay by visa..

so we watchd a movie
ghost game..
super duper cute thai guy!!!!
n the lead actress was hot sia..
looked a bit like dhaniah act..

oh n in replacement of secret recipe

i bought 2 coffeebean cakes..

spent like 16 dollars in all..
power ryt..haha
bought dinner at the woodlands bazaar..
been eatin wade n ramlee burger a lot lateli
he sent me home
realised how "me me me"
people can be..(arrow pointin to "dear" danny)
not everything is about u ok.
n i never chose u all this while..
so wad makes this time any different..
id rather be with well eli..
grow up..
ass..

Wednesday
~~~~~~~~
supposed to go jb again but by the time i got to woodlands
malasness kicked in..
so we went geylang..
i got cornflake cookies n that caramel choc thingy
n of coz i bought wade again..
my inner indian blood kickin in..
jus realised dat i got indian,persian,mongolian blood
im serious ..
1 thing i gt frm khalid that isnt so terrible
annyway
since it was like 950 we tot wed go siglap
got 4 bloody cakes...yayy
the power of 2 for 1 cakes
im officialli in love with the mud cake n choc marshmellow cake..
adam fetchd us n sent the goon home but mother got peeved cos i gt home after 12...

Thursday
~~~~~~~
last day with him..
we met arnd 9..
hung out at coffeebean..
im like a regular now sia..
got discount when i got my bagel..
haha i bagel face what..
da hazelnut latte is super nicela
esp with caramel on top..
got to hang with him awhile b4 goin bk..
*grinz*

Friday
~~~~~
work was ok..i was sad cos he was in camp oredi
technicalli worked like till 445 cos after that..
me shahrul n logu were juz hangin n talkin..
waited for goh till 630 b4 we headed to century square..
ate at Billy Bombers..
i had the Lost World Burger..
it was the beef burger in black pepper sauce and
topped with onion rings..
heaven yo..
together with cheese fries and
oreo cookie milkshake..
i was on a chocolate high after that..
when he called instead of talkin 2 him
bodoh blacan me passed the phone to adam..haha

Saturday
~~~~~~
mother is takin khalid to court HAH
Padan muka that belacan..
pay late sumorelah..
like never learn like that..
realli stupid its amazin
i would say hez onli clever academicalli but wait..
A level aje sia..
never even get into uni..
cnt even call him booksmart..
n like loju said..
booksmart is nothing..
esp if u dont hev initiative n workskills
n its worse if ur a self centered n
self worshipping ass
like that certain ev primary teacher
Mr Abdul Khalid..
remind me to be elaborate in my posts nxt time..

damn..i miss Taufiq..

n i wanna eat at Billy Bombers again!!!

2006-10-05T01:28:00.000+08:00

1 day away..

to think..u were just the "cute billabong guy" from canteen 1..

funny how a stupid crush actually did develop into somthing more

never thought wed be here ryt now

not when we had our first date

ur not only the goondu that i love but ur one of the bestest friends i have

know what..

i love u..

i love you cos u never fail to come up with

corny lame jokes..

cos u can be so over the top..

ur blurness..which is so darn cute

how u tolerate my merepekness and my mood swings..

the way ur so not sum1 i thot id fall for but i did..

n how ur so different from me..

yet those differences make me love u more

how much i wanna strangle ur neck at times

i love u..n others may doubt us or think its gonna fail yet again..

but i dont care..

my heart knows what it wants..

the others can go bugger off

2006-10-04T02:07:00.000+08:00

im gettin my diploma
iv got a job at eagles even after graduation
i can apply to become an engineer under the apprenticeship thingy
in short..
my career is a done deal..
hell even if i dnt get a degree iv got more experience n i earn more than what jc student can earn..
i get the same as a mec engin uni grad too..
this rocks

uni later later can...
like i said..i wanna let my mommy n gdaddy relak relak n enjoy first..
let them travel
do as many umrah as they want..
spend money at jb like nobodys business
so what if i dont have a dad..
my family is a happy one without him around..
we'v got problems at times but we love each other n thats most important..

n of all things i tertold him that i wanted
to name my kids natalia, dhanial n ashryaf
haha..i had to shut him up sumhow..
but instead i got the shock..
hmm..mayb what ashwin n ikah said bout us bein an "us"
is not as merepek as i tot..
n as much as i used to freak at the thought of bein with sum1 for more than 6 months
im not freakin out now..

2006-10-03T02:23:00.000+08:00

yawn...

man u is leadin..no comment

chelsea isnt...yay..

liverpool is losing..expected(i still love em)..

need for speed carbon is gna be released soon...yippie!!!

my poor lappie is so gona suffer..
half life, counterstrike, jedi academy, need for speed...
hmm..
mayb shall invest in a new lappy eh..
that hp pavilion is kinda kewl..
mom did volunteer to pay for me 1st..
yay..
ill of coz pay half first duh
yahoo!!
turnin to the dark side,
shootin people in the head,
racing,
get to destroy damn police cars..
cant wait..
(this is what happens when u complete
need for speed most wanted like 3 times
& play counterstrike n sniper too much)

2006-10-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

coolest plane ever..F22 Raptor
me at worke

2006-10-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

shit happens..
when she gets mad at me confirm durin that time
n guess wad i was right..
n its not as if everyone doesnt have problems..
some people juz like creating them

mom is kewl now..
not surprisin ryt..
went to mustafa n got perfumes to last till 2010
im waitin for the bvlgary crystalline..
beats jean paul anytime..
tho i love the can..
n this time mother didnt use a can opener..
bought this humongous box of cornflakes too..
for urs truly to make cookies..
hope she doesnt want the choco peanut butter one..
ill die makin dat..

worse lah..
her colleagues want to order marble cake..
arggh..
oh well..gettin 60 bucks juz to bake is not bad actualli..
can add to my ipod nano fund..

woohoo..cnt wait for raya
tho its gna kinda hell
mom will b in hosp for her operation..
but hopfulli by then discharge oredi..
gota bake like 4 batches of marble cake n mayb 1 suji
people will be swarmin to my place(was else is new)
lookin forward to seein my 4 favouritest kids
n of course mak eda's sambal goreng pengantin..

gota learn how to cook that
or better yet.my wedding..
main dish that
n atoks ayam merah
that n loadsa deserts..
n yes i said when..
not if..

saw a taekwondo banner thingy..
bugger..i miss taekwondo..
cant bliev its been 10 years since i last had lessons..
miss sparring with the guys
n roger gettin iritated cos wenever
i sparred with girls it looked like i was doin
"malay dance"
what..kick a bit oredi theyre complainin
push up usin knuckles also complain..
at least not guys push up usin knuckles on
the parkin lot ryt
think my last grading both me n the guy i sparred with
both got bruises after that..i had my bleedin lip..
that was super cool ah
wonder if i go back ill still b a brown belt..
or kena demoted to white again..
tidakkk!!!
i wanna get my brown black n black belt

n i wanna get those punchin bag thingys like ryan(OC) has
unless any1 wanna volunteer to spar with me..
kickboxin lessons do nothin..kick air only..
n ngee ann poly..
no body contact..
apa seh..then why offer??

2006-10-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

im sorry sweetie..

the stuff at home was drivin me nuts..
n not bein able to talk to u abt it made me super duper cranky..
plus...pmsla..
cant help it
thanks for all the erm advice..
n wad u said..

n for the record..
45 is normal for my darned 153/154cm
plus..dont wanna look fat i look in my baju raya..
tho there is no way im walkin to ur house..
if u need hangars..go beli urself ah..

oh yeah
this year ur moms gettin the nicer kuih..
mayb even marble cake
n not the lameass kuih tart
plus if ur lucki u myt get brownies this thurs ;-)
again thanks..
arggh cnt bliev ur goin off on friday...

i get myself part time bf cen..haha..
javier luis garcia sanz...
or
then again..
since hez married..
n since orlando bloom is newly single..
orlando cen??
hehz

aaanyway

as much as i need a brain transplant
n even tho i kno i alwez make ur blood naik tangga turun lift

i love u..

i can imagine people like matt, eli bangin their heads against the wall ryt now..
n lach rolling her eyes..

but its true..
ur that one person who can make me super iritated n frustrated
yet when ur around i feel happy n safe..
and all the crap that is happenin in my life doesnt matter anymore..

no matter what ull alwez be my luke skywalker..
eh wait..cannot..
forgot im leia..
haha inscest nanti
oklah..ur my han solo ok..
come to tink of it jayna natalia is a nice name ryt..
wdf am i sayin..

ps..ur ryt bout u kno what..
n Man U won..yay..
*dat is the 1st n last time ill say dat*

2006-10-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

1st complain that i eat too much..
now complain im too skinny
then accuse me of bein bulimic
then drinkin laxatives
complain that iv got more clothes than she does
nxt make noise cos i never contribute to the family n never give her my pay
when i say i did but she didnt want
"u think ur $100 very big"..
1 minute say this the nxt that..
kepala pusing..

2006-09-30T12:28:00.000+08:00

once u lose urself u have 2 choices
find the person u used to be
or lose that person completely
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
one tree hill is back
woohoo
my favourite couple(nate n haley)
tho now
i suddenly think brooke should leave lucas
why should she be with him
she gives him her heart but hez alwez taking her for granted
why should she stay with sum1 who somehow seems to alwez
want to help or pay attention or bother abt other people
then again which girl in the right mind would
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
george benard shaw once wrote..

"there are two tragedies in life..
one is to lose ur hearts desire..
the other is to gain it"..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ultimately tragedies happen..
what are u gna do? give up? quit?
when ur heart breaks u gta fight like hell to keep urself alive..
cos u are..
n that pain u feel..thats life..
the confusion n fear
dats there to remind u that somewhere out there
thers sumthin better
n its worth fightin for..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
as we strain to grasp the things we desire..
and the things that we think will make us happy..
like money, popularity, fame..
we ignore what truly matters..
the simple things
like friendship,family, love..
the things we probably already had..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
losing your hearts desire is tragic..
but gaining it is all u can hope for..
if having my hearts desire was tragic..
then give me tragedy..
cos i wouldnt give it back for the world

2006-09-30T09:17:00.000+08:00

WORLD CUP QUALIFIERS
Spain VS Sweden

Goalkeepers: Iker Casillas (Real Madrid), Pepe Reina (Liverpool).

Defenders: Antonio Lopez (Atletico Madrid), Pablo Ibanez (Atletico Madrid), Carles Puyol (Barcelona), Juanito (Real Betis), Joan Capdevila (Deportivo Coruna), Sergio Ramos (Real Madrid)

Midfielders: Cesc Fabregas (Arsenal), Jose Antonio Reyes (Real Madrid), Andres Iniesta (Barcelona), Xavi (Barcelona), Luis Garcia (Liverpool), Xabi Alonso (Liverpool), David Albelda (Valencia), Miguel Angel Angulo (Valencia)

Forwards: Fernando Torres (Atletico Madrid), David Villa (Valencia)

so my favourite my players are in the team but notice some1 missing..

Raul Gonzales!!

he was dropped *sob*sob*

but i think Aragones made a good choice..

Raul is totally burnt out n the poor guy needs a rest..

Real use him 2 much n of all ppl they make him play with Ronaldo..

aka fatty..

he deserves to rest..

tho ill miss seeing him play..

oh well..ad least *Garcia* ,*Alonso* & *Reyes* is playin..

ok then..gonna go back to sleep now..

yawnz

2006-09-29T18:39:00.000+08:00

if theres a foreign object on u
it can still be removed
n ull still look nice good
but if u dont n u uv got a defect..ntn can change that
provided to use cement or that filler dentists use for cavaties..
Wdf
Like I got no more drama to contend with
Its iritating u know
Falling for some1 but that person thinks of u as just a friend
And suddenly weeks later tat same person out of a sudden admit to having feelings for u
Lulubin goondu blacan
If all guys were like this I would just swear off guys totally
Hell I actually swore off guys after sophan
Hah banyak aku punyer swear off guys

This ashwin idiot
Keep on tellin ppl I invented the love quadrangle
Idiot
Where got quadrangle
At that time me n tf were together but havin probs again
I was into charles n kinda goin out with him
Sean was still not givin up n goin after me
N like duh I still had feelins for soppz
Esp since he n me were oryt again
Haha hexagon ah
Think that’s my worse

I actually liked the fact that taufiq started redatin sum1in march
Made me get to enjoy singledom
Tho im still single
wer like attached but not attached
got logic entah eh
I guess status wise were not attached
But after everything I guess it doesn matter
Cos it feels like we are a couple
I still refer to him as my ex
But every1 calls him my bf

it feels nice whenever we have those meaningful talks
like durin long bus rides
talkin bout the stupid mistakes we made in the past
esp dating mental patients
we each have our fair share of that eh
ihsan yuckkkkkkkk
n he said that he never once thought i would cheat on him
aparantly im not that kinda person
he is ryt cos I never actually went out with charles even though I liked him
but in a way I did kinda play him out once
i admit i did lie durin the whole azmil time
once ok I repeat once
that night of the FA cup final
we were supposed to hang out but it was my "last day" of work
was gona watch poseidon with the TRU staff
n well azmil was undecided on whether to go anot
in the end he decided to go
so

it was down to the 1 guy i really realli realli liked
n who kinda reminded me of my time with soppz
n the guy that hurt me time n time again
chose the 1st n lied to the other.
felt terrible though..
esp when fiq found out
im sorry about that
it was very not me
think I figured that he alwez saw me as the one who would alwez b arnd
so take me for granted
it was time for me to be un me
at least once

Actualli i feel like this can work out in the long run
But a part of me hopes he meets sum1 else
Someone he will eventualy settle down with
Does that sound crazy
I mean I do love him and whenever ash refers to him as my future husband
I actually smile to myself thinkin about it
But I already told myself im never getting married
The risk of goin throu what mother went throu
rather be alone than go throu that crap
The 1 thing iv lost faith in bsides my useless excuse for a father is marriage
Why do ppl get married when after small problems they start havin affairs or leave
I once thought that my parents divorce was crap but now things are worse
Its definitely better khalid left wen I was 10 months
Thinkin bout moms students who have to go through divorce
or parents leaving at such an age
its realli unfair to them
how could their parents be so uncaring
I don want to start a family only for it to fall apart

Besides I plan on leavin singapore by the time I turn 28
Doubt any guy would wanna leave singapore behind
Truthfully unless atok is still around
I don think theres a reason for me to stay here
Adam n mamat will b married n leadin their own lives
Matts goin back to manchester to stay wit eileen
Eli wants to return to canada too
So I guess ill have a partner in crime there

i gota get outa this place lah

2006-09-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

We went to geylang juz now
Was fun
Managed to find me a baju I love but will get it like this sat
ate popiah, satay n he had sop kambing n i half ate kway teow goreng
then
went to secret recipe for cake..
white choc macadamia
heaven sia..then took 10 home
cnt bliev hez 1 week away from him joinin army
cnt wait act
get to see him in army uniform
yumm

had fun 2nyt sweetie

i

2006-09-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU MD TAUFIQ BIN JAILANI!!!

BIZKOT

2006-09-26T04:44:00.001+08:00

Charles is super happy with me..since im an Army supporter..
Hehz..resident superman..wic he can be..bodywise..
Semangatlah he..carry arnd childhood piccie of himself in the "costume"..
Aerfi the best..condemn airport police..padahal he himself init..(male moron punya tempat apa)
Then theres Nur n his drivin in new zealand story..after 7 hours..
Can actualli look for problem with the sheep..haha..
My cuzzin lagi best..anjing2 company..haha infantry!!!
Wonder where abang faizal kena go..
him..prob kena
Security guard angkat pistol..
hahahaha..baiklah courtesy of grandad..

Speakin of security guard...saw shalin dis mornin…
N ashs reaction to her marriage was "shotgun ah??"
For the record no ok no shotgun..
Tho I notice sum shotgun marriages are better than non sg marriages..
Better they get married than "get abortion ah"..
Sure sumtymz its like the only choice..but ultimately use a damn condomlah..
should b cheaper than an abortion wad..
that 1 mistake of not usin 1
could ultimately gonna cost the life of an innocent
or cause a marriage..
again ash..hers isnt shot gun..if it was..shed have a baby right now..
why isit if a young couple gets married people think its shotgun..
grow up can..some people do settle down earli u kno
n well..i guess its good that she n jamie committed to each other eh..
too bad i couldnt make it to her wedding tho..

aaaaanyway

Champions League matches tonyt
Man U vs Benfica(go Benfica!!)
Arsenal vs Porto(neutral..Arse has Rosicky n Fabregas, Porto has Postiga!!!)
Lille vs AC Milan(duh..AC Milan!!!)

lookin forward to the nxt day...

Inter vs Bayern..
Liverpool vs Gala
Cheatsky opps i mean Chelsea vs Levski Sofia..a bit duh..Chelsea will win..
lets hope Barca kick their butts nxt meeting(sorry Soppz)

2006-09-24T14:32:00.000+08:00

obviously my favourites piccie has to be 1st..*muakz*
the 2005 squad..but wherez baros??
Carragher, Gerrard, Alonso & Reina..the fab 4

2006-09-24T01:33:00.000+08:00

(",)
started off the morning juz lazing arnd...
met up with Mr Taufiq @ like 3...
we managed to finally get sum alone time after god knows how long..
tink things are back to normal...
or at least partly normal..
hell i tink even better than normal..

then headed to town..
met shai for a while..
bumped into lacheemi n teng2...
gosh i juz realised how much i miss lach...
met Shabina
finally found sum1 who loves One Tree Hill..
its so much better than OC..tho i still love OC lah.
juz too draggy sumtymz..
n shez also immune to Taufiqs lameness..haha..
went to taka n got a cake frm bengawan solo a whole cake!!
coz goon taufiq got like 1/4 a cake at secret recipe..
hung out @ the coffee club to celebrate their frenz bdae...

n after that we went to the AIRPORT!!!!
gosh i was so happy...
cen finally eat POPEYES!!!
i was like craving the mashed potato n the fries...
tink chicken wise..Arnolds is better..
but i love the mashd potato.. oh gosh..
now im cravin it again..arggh..

now tinkin of all the places i wanna eat at after i get my pay
1)top of the m ...that revolvin restaurant..
2)fullerton hotel chocolate buffet(shaikhah n eli..november we go ok)
3)sofra turkish restaurant
4)pasta fresca
5)cafe vienna..
6)fish n co..
gosh..i tink evry month 1 place cukup.if not bankrupt yo..

aaaaanyway..
adam fetched us n sent Shabina n him back..
was a really good day actualli..but wasted Harrison was sick..
i was thinkin abt the look lach gav when she saw him..
guess he was the last person shed xpect me to date..
then again..
in may he was the last person i wanted to date
he did ask me why i got so angry at him that time n was mentionin
how i broke the watch he gave me..
i was like.."u broke my heart so i broke the watch"..
till now i dunno y i got so super mad at him..
oh yeah..i kinda felt a difference durin that time we hung out..
esp my drunk episode..
n i actualli re-fell for him..
imagine my shock to suddenly learn he was goin out with sum1 else..
n the stuff he said also..cnt blame sum1 for gettin super angry..
it was like "i oredi promised myself not to fall for his crap n i did"
but that incident actually made me totally rid myself of him in a way..
n of course u noelah..

the whole azmil thing started..
wic altho lasted what 2-3 months..
n ntn major act happend..
but i liked the whole juz hangin out till super late
talkin..playin bowlin till 3 am..
watchn midnyt movies n
eatin popcorn n nachos till we got sic..
it was very unlike me n taufiq wen we started out..

think the shockin 1 was wen taufiq either suddenly called me..
n suddenly everything was messy again..
i was torn btwn the two..n even azmil had sum issues..
althou its a bit obvious who i chose in the end..
n yes im gna admit now..
wen azmil n i hung out the day of the world cup..
i did still sorta like him then..
but the 1 i had feelings for is duh..
The Cheif Insurance Agent..haha
think that was the most kecoh time..

i was angry yet i got angry wen i heard what happend..
like the whole adam, ct n moron situation..
only moron too penakut..
juz know how to threaten n talk big(n by threaten i mean threaten the girl)..
then again ns police...no wonderlah chicken loser..
(aerfi,harrison n sum other people are execptions)..
there is a reason why i tink police n airforce guys as the *urgh* group
the best is still the Army(wheeee!!!) n then SCDF..
n even Airforce ok..hell bcome pilot of a fighter plane..
that is like my dream..to bcome a fighter pilot.
n serve durin the war(too many war movies)
ok sidetrackkin oredi..
i tink..why get angry at the other guy...
shuldnt u get pissed at the person who went out with the guy..
unless the guy forced her into goin out ..
if the guy had like dragged her our kickin n screaming
n she was so against goin out with him..
then u got basis to get angry..
all is fair in love n war..

n people can tink for themselfves n make their own choice..
tho they should take responsibility for their actions
n not let sum1 else take the fall..
but feel no guilt at all..
if he did the same to me..i would kick his butt..
why blame the girl..when hez the cheatin ass..
but i tink hez worid that i would go out with other guys..
or meet another azmil..
tho i tink iv come to the point that even if i meet a really cute guy..
i wnt realli b bothered to see how it goes..im happy with what i have..(",)
n cmon..im not the type to be with sum1 n go out on dates with other guys or my ex..
2 the most juz hang out as frenz..

like i alwez said..our relationship isnt perfect..it never was..
but its all the crap we went throu that got us this far..
n after all the crap..sumhow we still find each other..
n why am i rambling...*yawn*..
now gonna go off track...

LIVERPOOL WON!!!HAH!!!
& here are sum piccies

me @ work
us in may...feels so long ago sia
yesterday..realise both pics i picked his shirts *lol*

2006-09-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

after his "i never noticed how hot you are until now"comment

(& sum other fleeting comments)

iv been kinda tryn to avoid him..

sounds terrible ryt..

but i get get this vibelah..

the "this is goin to be another sean situation" vibe..

n i wanna avoid it at all cost

i mean if therez any guy from ESA i find remotely likeable(n dateable)..

its the cute "smile" guy from last thursday..

hez like a cross between Fish & Co dude n Taufiq(the 1 frm his frenster pic with salim)..

well a taller versionlah..

seems that he was tellin shahrul bout me(new girl)..

haha...

but @ ESA things spread like wildfire sia..

my fren frm Quality Management knows abt it..

n i didnt even say anithin

but i tink Toy's R Us worse..

b4 me n azmil even started hangin out..

most of the staff were already in the know..

but i like this whole ESA attachment..if not i'll alwez see dennis as this nerdy

part of the 3 stooges...

ok ok so he is kinda nerdy..but hes still talkable..

can talk bout soccer, music n normal stuff..

n speakin bout soccer..

im worid bout Liverpool..actualli im worid bout gerrard..

tink hez gna get burnt out..like raul..

n as happy as i am that Man U lost..

i stil rather see em on top than Chelsea..

n this is gonna sound so very random but i miss Jamie Redknapp..

n i miss my classmates.. :'(

2006-09-17T04:45:00.000+08:00

Sketches is over..

n now im sad

gonna miss all the rehearsals..

all the times we juz had fun doin stupid stuff..

the dancin, singin, catwalk, juz hangin n playin wolf or talkin..

anyway..

great job guys..so glad i got involved in this..

Yazid, Dhaniah, Nadirah & Shahdon..

u guys stole the show..brilliant actin n chemistry btwn characters..

Yihan...you will forever be my favourite "bitchy" doctor n of cos my fav Ides Character...

Shaiful..dun tink i wouldv even gotten involved if u hadnt askd me if i was..

glad u did..

Zul..my fellow Undercover cop n the most beng non beng iv ever met...

n most importantly my 2 compadres backstage..

Nurul n Faizal..

without u guys..the lightin n sound wouldv been haywire..

n not forgettin Ella..havin u arnd was fun tho it wouldv been so much better

if u had been arnd the entire time

n lastly..Taufiq..

thanks for believin in me..

n screaming for me..(",)..that goes to Nurul too..

it was an honour to be able to be involved in this production with u guys..

muahhzzzzz!!!

2006-09-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

nice ryt..nuruls brilliant photography skills

2006-09-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

his 2 girlfriends..
yaz,nadirah,dhaniah n yihan..
the erm pimps..haha
me, ikah n her fren(wasted u didn cme 4 8pmshw)
end of the day...ella, me n dhaniah..(tired faces)

2006-09-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

I PASSED!!!

hell yeah!!!

Got A B+ for Human Factors sumore!!

haha!!

after february..buhbyee NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC!!!

thank you lecturers for all the last minute tutoring

thank u ashwin for all the rides to skewl..

thank u god for everythin!!..

finally..out of poly..

into the workforce...woohoo!!!

2006-09-15T03:33:00.000+08:00

went for a tour of the engine assembly cell juz now..

darn kewlness..

now im not so sure of what i wanna do..

i love the prospect of bein an engine assembly technician..

but i wanna work in the induction area..

aka take apart the engine..

arrgh..

logu says i shuld pursue a mechanical engin degree

n then take masters in metallurgy..

thing is i wanna be a mechanic...

one of the labour people..

not technician in the office..sure its less stress..

n get paid more if i work there..but no challenge..

i actually might consider applyin for that intern thingy @ ESA..

had the official openin of our intergral employee centre...aka

the new canteenlah...got auditorium n stuff..

got free food..not bad actualli..the fish n chips..

sat in the dinner n dance..

but i think the only dinner n dance i ever wanna go for is the NP1..

n TRU 1..tho i missed that oredilah..blergh

results comin out in less than 8 hours..excited..more like scaredlah..

pls pls pls lemme pass..then buhbye ngee ann poly..sad but

YAY!!

rehearsal was pretty orait..set up the room..

managed go throu some parts..

fingers crossed..

n m pretty glad my frenz r cmin..esp those i havnt seen for weeks/months..

n in spite of everything..

taufiq's ryt

i tink that whatever happend btwn us

btwn the march n now period has made us closer..

no we're not the "perfect couple"..

i bet sum people see us like how sum view ikah n yat's relationship..

but just like iv alwez supported ikahs descision to be with yat
(cos he is a good guy)..

think my choice to b with taufiq shuld be my choice..

when doubts are concerned..i think both of us have our share of em..

but heck that..i Love u too..

2006-09-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

im gonna be part of the audit team..

how cool is that..

no more filing invoices..hah..

gonna be down at the workship all day long..

no starin at a computer!!

no sleeping!!

thank you ESA!!

n thank you Logu n Mr Goh..

gettin free food 2mr ..

dunno y also..

sumthin to do with the employee whatever whatever..

i dont care..free fish n chips..*wheeee*

like sophan says..dont bother..

why do i care what others think..

plus others have seen the truth for themselves..

its very intresting anyway..

n no..i wont stoop so low..

usin peoples past mistakes against em..

thats just so "moron"..

yeah as in abdul khalid abdullah..my ass of a father..

well i wont b surprised if 5 years from now..

hez still teachin at east view pri..

n got another kid..n still no degree..

n if he thinks i cn get married without him agreeing..puhleezlah..

i dont owe him anythin..

thank god i didnt let him pay for poly..

hell prob make me pay him back with more intrest..

then again..with those 3 brats..he'll need all the money he can get..

pity my stepmom actualli..

2006-09-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

went jb today with gdad..

met up with pak long malik n abng mahfiz..

they culdnt recognise me siah..haha..

prob cos im half the size i was last time wen i was in pri sch eh..haha..

didnt get a chance to go ct square thou..

wanna get the adidas jacket dammit..

n my secret recipe mudpie*swoom*

nvm..nxt week..next week..

tooth drivin me bonkers now..

kinda whacked on my meds..

can u blame me..

got 5 diff types of meds..

yawn..goin back to ESA 2mr..

yippie..

n azrul is tryn to set me up with his fren..

plzla..mayb i shuld start dating girls again..

shaikhah..where art thou shaikhah(its the meds talking)..

2006-09-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

took gdad to cgh juz now..

his heart is stable thank god..

so hernia operation is akan datang..

as for my choice to bcome a dnt teacher or a tso..hez so bhind me..

but im still gonna see if ESA will allow me to work @ the workshop area..

theres still SIAEC or SAESL..

hell i juz wanna not sit in a bloody office all day..

i missed minority report..thanks to dear mother..

talked abt her appointment n how she had to do ranking..

kinda sucks..i mean its good that shez a HOD now..

but shez workin 12 hour days..n cmin home tired..

so much for not bein too bogged down by work huh..

found out why she was unhappy with me..

but after the whole idham n syafiq wantin to beat me up incident..

i tink i can take care of myself..

actually..that was pretty kewl sia..2 guys wanting to beat me up..

well at least they had the balls to confront me

eh..dont tell my mother lah..

she'll be all.."u got into a fight n didnt tell me"..

hahaha..mati..

n yes sophan..as in that idham..

think its funny how people take a small thing n make it into a gigantic 1..

like say 1 insignificant thing..suddenli snowballs into a humongous 1..

so drama one..haha..how ironicle..

but mother funnylah..overeact onli..

then suddenli change topic..showed me the thai silk for my raya bju..

n its green!!!..kinda turquoise like..but its exactli like 1 of hers...

kewl..can match with her..yahoo..

now kena design the baju..

prob gna b standard kebaya with chinese button thingy..

or sumthin like my pink one..

tho last time i wore it..

i suposedly looked damn fat lah..

TF lah bodoh..got peevd wen he heard it

hell even i knew i was fat then..

but heck..im 46kg n im happee..ok ok..so i wanna b back @ my 40kg..

but if that happens..whats gonna happen to my jeans..

n the last time i even mentioned 40kg sophan almost kicked my ass..

haha cute ryt..

Zorro..(",)

2006-09-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

so i wrote 1 long post b4 dis bout erm sophan..

kinda decided to take it away..

its about time i locked those memories away..

they are just memories..

im with taufiq now..

n well..its pretty stupid if i get squinky that he wrote abt the gal he dated..

durin the time he dated her..

n here i am..writing abt my ex bf..the 1st guy i fell in love with..

almost 2 years since the day we broke up..

i cnt bliev its been that long..

feels like juz yesterday that i was kinda dating taufiq juz to get over soppz..

n now..there actually are feelings involved..i guess..

these things are juz so darn complcated..

n iv got to stop even slightly want taufiq to be how soppz was..

theyre both different..so its not wrong to love em both diff ryt..

like taufiq told me he loved me but he wasnt like crazy bout me..

aka like he was over a certain sum1..

but as for how soppz..we were both crazy n in love with each other..

thats the difference...

argh..b4 i start tellin 1 long story abt soppz n me id better change topic..

has rehearsal today..n it was ok..1st run was crap cos of loadsa mistakes..

n iv been given yet another role..

aiyoyo..

haha..cnt bliev were 1 week away from the big day..

shai emphasised that black box doesnt mean kena wear black..haha..duhhhh..

he didnt get to stay for the rehearsal tho..

i suggested he had his 21st bdae @ MCDOnalds..

hehz...im so 5 years old..

finally!!finally i ate sumthin other than asam, watermelon n papaya..

i officially stopped eatin @ 230pm on the 8th n started eaatin again at 915pm on the 10th..

tink 2nd longest time i went without food siah..

after rehearsals..yaz, yihan, taufiq, dhaniah n her bf, zul n the other zul

played the wolf game..

me n zul(dhan) were the wolf first..n in the end..i killed him off..

n faizal made the mistake of shakin hands with me..so in the end..i aka the wolf..won..

muahahahaha..tho 2nd time faizal killed me..n i managed to help dhan n zul kill him off..

hehe..evil ryt..had to go off tho..mother smsd me being well..mother..

"im not too happy with ur involvement with the play"..

arrgh..mati aku.

2006-09-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

im happy..so sue me

2006-09-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

hellew hellew..

finally the wound doesnt give me soo much hell..

thanks to the ice pack n endless supply of gauze..

had rehearsal today..

something like dat..nabella didnt come n dhan came late while taufiq went off earli..

but we did manage to watch "closer to your heart"..

that was 1 fantastic musical..dhan, aishah, shahdon n yihan have really good voices..

while yazid now wants a musical abt his life made..haha

soon man soon..

i was walkin arnd..ice pack on my face..

zuls gf tot i had mumps..haha..the horror..

the funnest was wen taufiq went off(with the keys to the room).

n shaiful, yazid n yihan decided to dance to ricky martins "livin la vida loca"..

i videotaped it(thank u my darling hp aka luis)

it ended with yazid outdancin shai..

hmm.mayb those 2 shuld join dat dance thingy eh...muahahaha..

so far only managed to get ppl like shahree, khidir, ika n lyn to go..

the rest still dunno wic timeslot to go for..

makes me wanna juz assign it to em..haha..

hope my classmates can come..tho i tink its pretty far for sum of em..

try oryt guys..

even msgd my aunt..dont want her to inform father though..

why shuld i have to see his ugly rat face..no thanks ah..

even if he paid 10 bucks..no way..

rather have my gdad, aunts n my cuzzins(i actually miss em) there..

well minus my "u shouldve taken up nursing not engineering" uncle..

lucky thing im not at nyp..kena see his face..eerrrgh..

wanna ask mother to go..but i dunno..

i remember her reaction to ides..n i malas to listen to her..

no wonder i rarely watch plays n musicals with her anymore..

last one was mamamia..or sumthin else..

i forgot sia..

i only remember that one at Esplanade..but that i went with the LPS teachers n taufiq..

entah..

cant even remember which play n musical i loved most..

ok ultimate is still Les Miserables..

Chang n Eng was really good too..

so was the Golden Rain n Hailstones show..

loved Joseph n The Technicolour dreamcoat too..

juz saw all the programmes..

damn my moms seen a lot sia..i cant even remember if i watched Oliver anot..

mayb i shuld start catchin worth it shows again..

tho i tink i shuld prob cont dreaming till iv actualli got money..

speakin of money..

i soo wanna eat ice cream now..

the strawberry cheesecake haagen daaz is like calling me..

i swear..by next sunday..i wanna eat @ SWENSENS!!

i want my calamari, almond crusted lamb chops/ chili fish pasta

&

frosted chocolate malt with coco pops on it..

arrgh..crap..why did i remove my tooth again??

think the last time i ate was 215 yesterday..unless u count the medication i just took..

got myself a cadbury flake ice cream n stuffed it in the freezer..

that will be my reward on wed..after the stiches are out..

tho dunno how im gna survive not eating a single thing till then..

yes i wanna eat..but pain lah..

u send me for surgery can..but after cutting up my gums..drilling part of my teeth

yes i actualli heard n felt the drilling..

and stitching my gums(it looks like a Y)..

u cant tell me that i cant eat spicy foods..that i gota eat soft(aka bubur) food..

n worst..i cant drink PEPSI!!..

thats as simple as telling me juz drink plain water n no food..

ok fine so mayb ill eat bread..(time to stock up on bojour chocolate n that banana walnut bread)

n no hot drinks..so no hot chocolate for me*SOB SOB*

n know whats worse...i cant chew on ICE!!(i cen see taufiq n eli smiling while readin this)..

i feel like a part of my soul has been taken away from me..

i feel so lost..n sad..n melancholic..

hahaha..n all bcos of ice..can die ryt me..

2006-09-09T17:52:00.000+08:00

me & him(with shai in the background) ..xplains the laughin

2006-09-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

finally!!channel 5 gonna show prison break..

woohoo!!Wentworth Miller!!

YUMMY!!!

n yup i was talkin abt shalin n her entourage in my last post..

since they were a big part of my sec sch life..

dnt tink sayin how i feel is called an attack..

tink attack is when u inentionally use sumthin 2 get at sum1..

like when people use ur past mistakes 2 take a dig @ u..

entah..my english isnt as gd as it used 2 b

oh well..im juz an aerospace engineerin poly kid..

all i know is turbines, flight mechanics n aircraft systems..

n bsides..theyre so secondary sch..

so dont bother dont bother..

thank goodness ill end up workin with guys..no drama..

2006-09-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

day started off great..cos i woke up at 730!!!

dear mother sent me to work..

spent the whole time doin the damn invoice n qoute thingy..

cabotted @ 1230 for lunch..first time i actually ate sumthin @ the cafeteria..

but i hate the lining up..

so got vegetarian kway teow..

ashwin ate like half of it thou..

mother then fetched me n made me like eat again @ home..

cos she knows i wnt wanna eat at all after the surgery was over..

the procedure didnt hurt actually..

tho the doc was sayin how brave i was being cos not once did i complain of pain..

tho now i wanna punch out sum1..

taufiq came over arnd 4-ish..

he got me the caramel pretzel thingy..but i cant eat it..:'(..

tho he promised me 1 after my wound heals...*yay*..

heal wound..HEAL!!!

was supposed to go for the LPS campfire n b a judge

i so wanted to go..but mom felt i needed rest..

mayb i shuld help out for the PPIS camp again..

tho not having hilmi with me will b diff..

arrgh!!!attachment rocks balls..

hez been really great..

n im so proud of him..

for the person hez become..

n ok we may not have had the best relationship..

it was totally rocky n erm soap opera-e..

but i tink everything dats happend has made us grow n change..

n i like where we are now..

some might see me as the dol who is still with him..god knows y..

they prob think im a total loser..

some may be like "typical nadiah..told u ud end up with him again"..

hell i dont care..

tf may be so well tf..but hez a good guy..

to those who understand n think that this may juz work out(ika, eli)..thanks..

so glad iv got friends like u guys..

hell if shalin knew all this..she'll prob be so well shalin(u knowlah ika)..

thank god im not friends with such a judmental n miss high n mighty her..

cannot tahan these kinda ppl..

whenever they do certain things its fine..they dont apologize for their mistakes..

but when sum1 else does the same or mayb sumthin not as terrible..

n when they get offended over the smallest thing..

then constantly attack the other person..

its like..get over urselflah..

good thing i cut myself free from the shalin gang..

but like mom said..dont waste energy on em..

all they want is attention..

2006-09-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

a i love the times when things are great btwn us..

like yesterday..

the talk we had was really nice..

n some of the things i heard were pretty shockin...

in a good way i mean..

wont go into details..

but its weird..i didnt knowlah that natalie in the play is suposedly me..

haha..the sarcasm..talkin to danial but never lookin at him..

n her soft heartedness after all the crap..

no wonder tf said that i would make a gd natalie..

but i tink dhaniah is perfect as nat..

and

as much as the whole post

me gtn drunk n him takin care of me thingy made me pissed..

weird that that happening that changed things..

he said that 1 thing abt me is that when i bitchy..

its bcos im juz tryn to get back @ sum1 for pissing me off..

or bcos im moody or angry..

not bcos im naturally a bitch..

haha..then again..isnt that bad??

ikah n ashwin n eli all think that we'll so end up married..haha..

ash especially..damn weirdlah they all..
somehow..me n tf married??hell..me married??

while most girls dream of marriage..im so not 1 of em..

went for ycp today..tho ended up takda rehearsal cos the leads werent arnd..

juz experimented with sum scenes n then listend to hu kena booted outta spore idol..

phew..jonathan is still in..yahoo!!!

nurul n i wanna try out for dance fever for fun..

haha..dont ask..

me n him standard..had our stupid fights n urgh moments..

n he was like..

"its these times that the(sometimes it takes all my strength to talk to u)is derived from"..

haha..whoops..i guess i cen be bad with my moods n stuff..

ate at "techno" after that..

now that was even funner..

talkd bout loadsa stuff..

like how some people may seem a certain way..

but in truth they just 2 faced sobs..

sum people may not be flawless with a snow white overmade up face but ultimately its the

inside that matters..

no point being beautiful when ur inside is the total opposite..

wise words from both my mother n tf..

it was funnylah..what we found out..

n how yazid was disturbin yihan bout it..

yet i made him realise that he was also included as it involved all the ycp guys..

haha..poor guys..mustav gotten a shock when tf told em lah..

2mr..is my operation..kinda scared but glad im gettin it over n done with..

moms payin for most of it..n tf gave me sum money(im so payin u back!!)

come to think of it..thank god my assface father cheated on mom..

if not she wouldnt have gotten her degree n her masters..unlike him..

stuck with 3 brats(me not included)..and not goin anywhere..

no wonder maintanence payments alwez late..

cant wait to grad..get a job n save..insyallah mom n gdad will get to enjoy..

gdad is gettin better insyallah..mayb 1 day can take him to a EPL match..

haha..leeds vs liverpool mayb..

why the hell leeds..dunno..

mayb cos the 1 i love loves em..

shut it eli..im finally admitting it ok..

i love the goon..

2006-09-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

me in my safety goggles....muahahahaha

2006-09-07T00:31:00.000+08:00

the two jagung idiots...oficially my fav sushi buddies..

2006-09-07T00:27:00.000+08:00

this is my fav pic of us...taken like 2 days b4 his bdae..check out the hair!!...haha..

2006-09-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

finalli did work today...

forgot to change into normal shoes tho..wore my safety boots home..

hey theyre good if i wanna kick people(thats a warning eli)

was talkin 2 nat n she was tellin me abt the whole matt/danny/rahmat thingy..

i gta admit im pissed at herlah..

shez dating both danny n rahmat..

n of all people..to kiss..she had to kiss matt!!!

i mean..which slut kisses her ex husband when shez dating 2 guys..

claims to be in love with 1 guy but still sees the other n tells him she wants to be with him..

oh wait..i know 1..thank god my cuz saw right through her..

oh well..i guess its juz a kiss..

itll b worse if she slept with matt..

then id kick her damn butt..

urgh..

n danny..i will kick ur asslah!!