mentally unstable

i want to i hev to but i cant..i mean..i can..but dammit i just cant..makes sense..doenst to me...god..i mean..how am i supposed to tell the guy im with something like that...something no1 else knows...something iv been keeping from every single person for the past year....its not the easiest thingy...but well i know iv got to tell him sooner or later...i knoe he'll prolly hate me for it...or as expected dump me but hey its either that or him finding out on his own...n if he does end it its better if it ended now b4 i realli realli fall for him...i know matt is gonna flip once he knows im keepin sumthin frm him..im sorry man..this is just something that is best u didnt know...got ntn to do with u....i just hev to tell him sumtym soon....in the meantime...i wanna try to forget that it even happend...so much for blockin it outa my mind

posted by naddz @ 1:18 AM