so now i shall...
1st...Happy BIrthday Yumiko..
next..iv got like 1 more week of skewl..
been stayin back late to finish up my ddacp...drivin me nuts but im surviving..
hope i cen get oryt marks for it..
should kno where ill b goin for atachment soon...
kinda freaked out bout it but lookin forward to it..
miss workin @ TRU...wanna go back but been superbusy with skewl n mom bein mom
how to go back sia..
n with the D&D cmin...god knows if i got enuf money to even wanna go...
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had a weird dream a few days ago...
think either sophan or coco pops was init..
it felt so darn real..like it happend b4 or sumthin...i also dunno
i juz woke up with that feeling...
like i woke up thinkin the dream was real but realise that it was well..a dream..
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talked to danny after what seems like forever
he asked me if id rather be with any guy i was remotely attracted to/used to..
or wait for that one person i really loved..& more importantly loved me..
for once i didnt have an answer..i said i would wanna be with the "1"..
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but i think that there is only one "1"..
and if u met the person the feeling would be entirely diffrent...
from the feeling u get when ur with others..
whenever ur together nothing else matters..
all worries just fade away..
each kiss is like a jolt running through ur body..
and proves that there is a cloud 9..
& somehow u can actually imagine spendin ur life with that person
even when u promised urself u never wanna get married..
but if it doesnt work out n ur not with that person..
u just have to accept it and move on..
although even years after it ended u still feel sumthing when u think of that person..
all the good memories will leave a smile and the bad a tear..
sumhow songs, tv shows and even movies would somehow remind u of what u had..
u still keep little things that remind u of them..
pictures, receipts from ur 1st date, faded ticket stubs, the homework u did together
the book u borrowed when u had to retake maths 2,
the stupid dinosaur won from escape
u know thats all in the past but
deep down u still wish u had sumthing a love like that..
iv alwez felt that..
one has to accept that they might not end up with their one true love..
but they cant lie to themselves and tell themself that they love sum1 when deep inside
theyre just scared of starting over or being alone or letting go after being with that person
for a long time..
or can they??
posted by naddz @ 6:30 PM
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