mentally unstable

well..i didnt get any sleep..didnt get any studyn done even...dunno y hez upset with me...wad did i do now??...wad da phukin??comeon i was feelin sick so of course i phuke..not as if i force...sure im upset but not that upset...alah..dunnolah...im always doin something wrong....screwup what...nothin can change that fact so y try...god y must alwez get upset when iv got maths test or xam...1st it wuz da whole hafiz breakup n now this...hah..he didnt even notice when i dleted da damn thing...god what da hell wuz i tinkin when i did it...dumb move nad...ah well...this IS me...argh...im so gonna fail...ah fuck itlah....i wuz kidding myself when i chose this course anyway...how i got in is still a mystery...hey..at least if i fail again better ryt..get kicked out so i wont b foolin myself again...im alwez doing this...always think something can work out when it cant...it never will..why..cos its me...its in my damn genes...shitlah...i do dun wanna cry yet im cryn like sum baby....mayb i shuld juz go throu with it...save myself b4 its too late...but i know ill regret it...but sometimes i get so damn freakin confused lah...i just dont get it...everything...know what...truthfulli..i wish i was never born...typical eh..but realli...i mean...i bet u my parents wuld still b together if it wasnt for me...hell he started to stray when i came into the picture....argh...fuckin hate this...its like all da crap that has been happenin is comin back to me...how m i supposed to take the damn test when im feelin this way...like i sed heck it..fail sudah....hey add to my status as a failure anyway...n like me n shalin dcided...dun wan others to find out...then dun even let em suspectla....so frm 2day onwards its gonna b implemented i tink...juz seelah...get updated on it 2moro...or shuld i say today...well its now 530...better start understandin a bit....hop i at least pass the freakin test...

posted by naddz @ 4:47 AM