Tuesday, November 02, 2004

things between me & him have been real rough lately...i guess its a mixture of puasa n like me n my bloody moods n well my uber bitchified bhaviour recently...well i cant help it...hungri plus me misinterprating evry single thing...i dunno y im like this...esp now...its like suddenli iv got this feelin if im not careful or nithin i will definitely end up losin him...thing is i dunno wad da hell im supposed to do...im so ok with the whole freedom n independent thingy...thou when i wuz with zhofry that ended up blowing up in my face..but im not the kind to not trust anione..unless they broke that trust once...i will forgive definitely..but forget..pleeselah..but nwe back to him...i know if i say this ill end up barfing n all but hell...i really do love him...i admit..yes i know..im supposed to be the ice queen...n im supposed to spit in loves' eye n all that but well i changed my mind...i love being with him n well even if im not with him i still feel it...god i wanna kill myself for bein so emo..yerkh...i cant believe he n i would still b together after all this time n everything else...and the thought of losing him is just freaky...i mean i know ill survive and all n hey if he doesnt wanna be with me im not gonna say a thing to try n get him to change his mind..but bottom line is..i just dun want it happening..sumtymz i just wish i knew how he felt bout me..damn..im startin to get sleepy...anyways..i just wanna say that im so sorry baby..i dun blame u for gettin mad at me for all the times i wuz so terrible to u...really hated the way tonight ended...anyways..i dont think ill b seeing u anytime soon so just take care of urself..esp at work...i love u...

posted by naddz @ 4:03 AM

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