mentally unstable

skewls startin in like 2 darn days..xcited..yes..malas..hell yeah..tho im glad i emaild my lecturer to change classes for y thurs n fri practical n tutorials..at least if im with ashwin n effendi then can still take cab if desperately late ryt..not that i dont like the other class tho the onli one i kinda talk to from that class is probabli charles..that poor guy..remind me to pulverise samay when we get back to skewl..terrorise charles and me sorta..(not that im not used to it)..tink last tym i got bugged for kinda likin sum1 was when i liked sophan n dis ivan made it so darn obvious..altho me n sophan did get together lah..but hello since when did i like charles??oklah oklah hez cute..and nice..but cmonlah..this is me..even if iv got crushes on other guys and stuff ill never betray the guy im with..no matter what..sure I did it when I was with eman(still cant believe I did that ok)..but well after the same thing happened to me im not gona do dat ever..wait..how come I suddenly talking bout this…

went out with shaikhah n lach today..yes iv not seen em since well forever..esp shaikhah…so glad she made it siah..when taufiq and I talked bout the shoot n her I realized how much I missed the time I spent with her in sec sch..after the big blow out in sec 4 we never act bcame close again..n I miss that friendship with her..it was never the whole competitive love hate thing like what I had with shalin..it was comfortable..wer kinda alike and we don’t judge each other and respect each others decisions so its healthy..same with lach..even tho iv been close to her a while n not as long as with shalin I know I can tell her important stuff..even the stuff shalin would expect me to tell her..i dunno..i guess I used to look up to shalin n patrina n Diana so I just went along with them and let what they thought n said affect me but now its like..whatever lah..ill do what I want..so what if all my relationships never work out n if my mom can be a pain sumtymz..and well I dun have as much freedom..i happen to like my life..my mom does mean well despite her weird ways and well she supports me with whatever descisions I make..and well so I may not be able to stay with a guy for more than a year(besides rahmat but that was what sec 1?)..but well I v been with diff guys and well it’s the experience and who knows ill meet sum1 who I myt b able to make things work with..

posted by naddz @ 3:35 AM