nwe after tf i left skewl strait..wanted to wait for ash so cen take the car but i had the chalet so i had to cabot 1st..went home changed n stuff n went to the chalet..met up with eli n hung out n stuff..sat in the rm listening to the bsb song..n was playing with my mood ring..the one i had when i was still with soppz n every single thing just came back to me..i dont know why each time i listen to sad songs or think about memories that either make me realli happy or realli sad, he'z the 1 that comes to my mind..
the time when ivan found out n made it pretty damn obvious, the i said a thing to him(askin for his address n he goon had the cheek to say "home ah?"),1st time he msnd me n i got the shock of my life, the whole week of chattin each day but never talkin in class, the talk on friday where ivan n din were telling me to juz ask him out, helmy running up to him n farhan n sabo-ing me, me gettin another heart atack when he called while i was sleepin in the bus(when exiting the xpressway), goin for beybeats that nyt, him sendin me back to tamp haha, him readi my blog n wantin to kno hu i liked n not knowing that the person, "zorro" was him n me making up liking akash to cover up my crush on him, him suggestin us goin 2 skewl tgether, the girls convinced he liked me but me not blievin it at all, waitin for amp prac to start the nxt monday n him sayin sumthin bout him doin sumthin bout the "zorro" thng(wic got me pretty suspicious), the day asked me to b his gf n hw he did it(askin me "what if zorro asked you to be his girlfriend right now"), tellin me he noticed me the day of the orientation, the first time we went to fort canning n talked till he accidentli missed his sisters bday thigy, watchn sisters @ lido n him gettin iritated wth me predictin the story, spendin his "birthday" at the syfc n my period but no pad fiasco, watchin "irobot" after that even tho my damn neck hurt from sttin ryt in front, sttin at istana park n him "talking" to the cat, callin the cat "brother" and feedin it pretzels n popcorn, all the times in autocad when he would help me, forcin me to go class, hangin out in the library with him..fort canning, watching the notebook with me even tho we had common test the nxt day, the sentosa outing, eatin sushi n him stealin one sushi from the conveyor, the time i came back from KL n he never realised it still takin my notes for me n not noticin me sittin 4 places from him, long bus rides, meaningful talks, our stupid fights that will end in like 5 mins, how we made fun of the hafiz "rabak" thng, how he alwez knew when i was having a mood n knew that just huggin me or holdin my hand would make it better, how he knew me better than i knew myself sumtymz, how i alwez knew that he loved me he didnt say it much but he shwed it, how he made a blog account cos i asked him to, how his blog entries alwez made me smile, how much it hurt when we broke up, watchin shutter with him n him actualli gettin scared, the class chalet, the fight at the end, pretending that i hated him when all i thought about was him, that day months ago when i saw him n he actually adknowledged me and smiled..
no..this doesnt mean im not over him..i am..i just have a good memory n all these things are the stuff that made me feel all warm n fuzzy inside..
nwe..sat mornin had brekfst with taufiq cos he also cme for the chalet..we ate at the foodcourt n thn had hotcakes(i got craving haha) n then i headed home n he went for his drama thingy..no im not with taufiq n i dont think we'll ever b anithin more than frenz n sumhow im totally fine with that..i still care about him n i do have kinda sorta feelings for him but we'r better like this..just frenz..us in a relationship is like a timebomb ticking away..n besides i dont wanna get into another relationship anymore..dont wanna risk nithin nimore..
sumhow this can so be directed at him(soppz i mean)
Backstreet Boys - I Still
Who are you now
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that
I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
posted by naddz @ 2:35 PM
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