mentally unstable

im sick n tired of guys..all of them..done with dating..flirting whatever..cos in the end illalwez end up tinkin of him..i wish i could just be with another guy juz to forget him..its not like i dun have any choices..shafiee,dan,billabong guy,shah..n now possibli faizal*i know hez my cuz but not directli n its not the faizal im close to..this one is on my gmoms side*..i know the 1st 4 guys like me..but its like i cant b bothered to pursue anythin..when im with them i juz dun feel anythin..nothin at all..i dun wanna settle anymore..done it most of my life n i was never happy..i was happy when i was with him..n i ruined it..i was right all along..im so like marissa..i tink doin all this crap dat i keep on doin..pills..drinkin..bulimia will make things better but they dont..n ill onli end up hurtin others..hez better off without me..i was onli gonna end up ruinin his life nwe..its better this way..i should just b outa his life for good..no sms..no talkin..no msn..he deserves better

posted by naddz @ 1:35 AM