Sunday, August 01, 2004

elloz...its like what almost 5 n i cant sleep...dun ask...been like this since yesterday...n i keep on eatin n eatin..its weird i tell ya...ah well...at least i didnt gain ani weit...err not yet aniway....im also listenin to dat avril lavigne song ...my happy ending...its da coolest song ever...so is bellefire-say something anyway...n i acci heard dat song on mtv oso..haha..skill ryt me...haha...anyyywez met him jez now n we went to fort canning..he did his project with TK and i studied for my amp...still gota go down skool 2moro...haizz...malas sia...then monday got test..im so stressed...cen die lah...hmm know what...with him he alwez cen tell when im upset or moody...even if we're onlynlah..onli thing now i know how to pretend im fine cos seriously when im moody its cos of the dumbest ass reasons so at least i cen get over it n b fine without him tinkin im sumpetty nutzo dope...which err..i cen b sumtymz...hahaha...n i know i know im not supposed to b too emotionally into the relationship like shalin told me to be..but ah well..its a bit too err late...i act am falling for him...n as freaky as it is..it actually feels kinda nice...esp since im letting myself fall for him..haha...cmonlah..u know me...too scared to actually take a chance esp after my past mistakes...but i swear if this goes downwards i seriously am gonna lay off all guys...n hell if i could do it for da past 9 months then i cen do this now...he did say he wont break my heart...but...urgh what da hell m i tinkin...theyre both diffrent guyslah...but theyre still guys...cmon nad..tink positive...hasnt he been anithin but wonderful..but thats the problem...there has to b sum flaws...no1 is perfect u know...ergh...whats it with me...i juz cant accept it when good things happen to me..there juz has to b a loophole...it juz has to be...i mean..this is me..my entire life is filled with crappy things hapenin even if good things...great things happen..they never ever last....wonder if that avril song can b used in my life...haha...hell i juz realised that he myt read this..whoops..sori...juz how i felt at the time...i seriously dun doubt him at all..just my luck n da fact that no matter what...i alwez alwez alwez get kicked in da ass after sumthin real good hapenz to me..its juz a scientific fact...but yet...each time i think of him i juz smile...thats y i like da fact i can remember the past very well..can remember almost evrythin btwn us..n evrythin he told me...haha...n its been what onli a week(+) since we got together....good god...i lasted a week...wow...give him 3 more weeks b4 gettin irritated with the mood swings till he wants to take a swing @ me...hahaha...k k..its like 530 now..wanna try sleep...goodnyts..luv u all...kisses XXX

posted by naddz @ 5:34 AM

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