before this....
hilmi..can i kill u please..why must u alwez do this to me..look sure i had hope that me n him will get back together but now..hope of saving wadever frenship we had is gone..its like im smsin a stranger now..and well i was handlin it fine..till u came along..u just had to make me remember ryt..juz had to show me the pictures..just leave it ok..n dun say im forcin myself to like shafie..im not..its time for me to have a life..i cant keep dwelling on the past n holdin on for sumthin thats oredi gone..please..iv accepted this already..i juz want the pain to fade away..along with the memories..dun get me rong..i dun wana hev da memories cos well rememberin hurts..just reminds me of what i lost..like jus now..went to the airport n saw the skytrain..n suddenli i went from happy to upset n moody..my mom was sayin dat she told uncle khiong how proud she is of me that im dealing with the breakup fine..yeah ryt..what she doesnt know doesnt matter..hell the only person i actualli knows how i realli realli feel is aerfi..n he doesnt even kno dat much..u guys kno cos of well this blog..i cant talk to shalin or the girls cos theyre well theyv got guys..n theyv lasted years..n all they will say is that ill b fine or ill find sum1 better or he doesnt dserve me..its the typical lines..n they dont work..talkin to matt or syaril is useless cos they will try to steer me to dan n rahmat..no way..shit..y must i start rememberin all my times with him..i hate havin such a good memory..it just makes everything harder..hilmi..i know u want me to be happy..but cmon..u and i both know everythin is obvious..pointless for me to hang on when hez already walked away..and well u kno my luck..it never works out for me..i guess now i know what it feels like to deserve being dumped..n well like luke said..the sooner u realise its never gonna go back to the way it was..the sooner u can let go..
posted by naddz @ 1:09 AM
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