Wednesday, November 24, 2004

well its over now..he broke it off with me...hell i know its my fault...but that was juz how i felt at the time i wrote it..n by writin it in my blog is my way of lettin off steam..i know i hvnt been the most lovin gf but i dunno y i juz fear bein that way cos i feel like hez not bothered at all n i didnt wana seem needy...these past few weeks hev been crap...evrytym i wanna meet him it alwez alwez gets cencelled for sum reason or another...n he makes it seem like hez meetin me juz cos i wanna meet n its like as thou hez onli doin it so that i get to see him..like hez doin me a favour...like the movie on sun...n i was hurt wen he didnt even sms me on sun...i was up da nyt hopin he myt say sumthin after work but he didnt at all...i onli got a msg after my xam...its like..ok now u wanna sms huh...its not that i dun trust him but sumtymz ur imagination does run wild esp wen u hvnt seen the person for days n like u know things are diffrent..i wish i culd meet him 2moro since i fin werk earli..but since we'r over i guess it wnt happen...n like sat wuz our 4th month n its like as thou he forgot...act i kinda feel like he doesnt tell me nithin...im alwez tellin him stuff bout my job..bout the people....everythin...he doesnt realli..juz tells me like inane n general stuff...as much as i trust him sumtymz stuff people tell me make me think otherwise...ah erll...if he wants to break it off for good then im not gona stop him...im not gona try to hold on or pine for him like i did with hafiz...if this relationship is nothin to him n well even thou a lota things hev happend..i guess hez not the one who has to live with the fact that those things happend...i know i wnt b fine but well i know after sum tym iwill...at least i hop i will...juz gota live with the fact that again i screwed it up...

posted by naddz @ 1:10 AM

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