mentally unstable

i dont even know what to write now...hell i cant even see the screen properli...well...im not even gonna say what happend...i guess wad i juz found out from lyn is triggering this...but i dunno y im pissed at lin too...its like yeah he sed "i love u"...thats great..but y do u hev to analyse it...he sed it...whether he meant it or not..i duno...juz take it as he did n if u feel da same tell him too...n i dun need to noe whatever u guys do when well u noelah...its between u guys...hell i hevnt even gone to 2nd base with a guy...n never will so y da hell tell me...+ if u wanna do it do it...dun go back n forth bout this n dat when u noe u want to...n u tell the whole world u wan to...god...n evry1 arnd me is like alwez tellin me their probs n stuff...their crazy moms,crazy boyfrenz or girlfrenz..this that...i mean its not that i mind but sumtymz i wonder...after they dump all their baggage on me do they ever ask how i am...hmm no...hell do they care...or r they juz arnd for the free food n taxi rides...well sori but i guess ur gonna hev to find another person for that......that juz shows how important i m huh...seriousli i wish that i wuz outside when i passed out that sun...shuldv taken the pills b4 goin out sia...urgh...im damn screwed up sia..no1 noes y...i dun even noe...wish fathrul wuz arnd...he wuz da onli i culd tell my probs to n he actualli listens...n his advice is rough but it works...ah well...i guess ryt now its juz me...hrm..shuld b markin my moms papers now...2 stacks down 1 more to go...arg...but 1st must stop cryin haha...aniways...wuz tokn to lach juz now n tot of holdin a bbq durin june possibli on my bdae...come to tink of it i dun even wanna celebrate it nimore...juz stay home...if people remember theyll juz sms me to wish me n hug me when they see me...im done wishin for a fun bdae...i tink u onli get it once in ur lifetime..i had mine in sec 3...so thats it...this year i juz wanna get it done with n b 18...then i juz gotta save up enuf n once iv got like 5 k im outta this place..i noe my moms gonna leave me for canada once my gparents r gone so muz prepare myself...hey..ill juz work my ass off till iv got enuf to liv in australia...or better yet the us...live at NY or LA or sumthin..sumwher fun...sydney...dunnola...figure it out when iv got money...oh yeah..watched van helsing juz now..it rocked...hugh jackman was hot...n surprisinli kate bekinsale looked good too...i like her now..haha...n check out her bro in the show...bloodi hell..id do that guy anytime sia..he wuz hot...wad is it with me n dark dangerous guys...or geeky sarcastic guys...go figure...

posted by naddz @ 12:30 AM