posted by naddz @ 5:11 AM
Friday, December 10, 2004
my life is goin down the friggin drain..i dunno wads goin on nimore..well i know that there is definiteli sumthin more goin on with him...i mean like therz sumthin else..i feel it...n well now when im with him i dun feel nithing frm him...n all he does b4 he leaves is juz kiss me on da friggin forehead!!evrytym i watch him walk away it just hurts...i dunno why i gota go through this everyday...yest it was like as thou i dun even exist...it damn hurt..but i cant stop lovin him...sure i admit it..i do still find hafiz well appealing..saw his pic on frenster with his sis(tink one of the twins)..soo sweet sia..hell..i dun hev feelins for da guy nimore..n well as for idham...well yerkh...haha...i kno im kinda good at hidin my feelins for him n i kno he wont read my blog so iv got nothin to worry bout...i dont wanna ruin things by tryn to talk to him about it..he oredi told me time n time again that he doesnt wanna discuss about it anymore...so fine i wont discuss about it...i just wish that if there is sumthin...sum1...else he shuld tell me...i realli want him to tell me stuff esp if sumthins goin on...i mean wer frenz ryt...argh...god why do i feel this way..i just have to let go n 4get him..hell i gota stop writin bout this here...its gettin a bit old u kno...argh i gota stop..seriousli...if other people can get over broken relationships then i can too...its stupid..when im with him it feels terrible cos its realli as thou hez not "there"..but when im not i cant help wondder what hez doin...what hez thinkin...if hez even tinkin of me...stupid ryt...argh..god...hell i even wonder if hez smsin sum other gal..cmon its his choice ryt...wer not together...watchd da o.c juz now n in the show summer broke up with seth well cos her dad didnt like him n its like he was like "i dun care about ur dad..i care about u..a lot..and if thats not enough for u..well obviously thats not good enough for u"...now...thats how i feel..he doesnt see how much i love him and well now i dunno why he still hangs with me..what does he feel obligated to me cos of what happnd between us??i dunno...i realli wish i knew what he was tinkin..wad hez feelin cos this is juz gonna drive me bonkers...when i see hafiz im like *swoon* like yest but subconciousli i was checkin out his reaction to it...why sia!!!argh...lyk yest he didnt even msg me after..not even wen he was gonna sleep..argh..dun wanna tink bout it lah...
About Me
- Name: naddz
- Location: Singapore
really really loud,weird,a bit mentally unbalanced,retarded @ times,crazy all the time and moody occasionally..but other than that im tahanable..bein sarcastic is wad i do best(aside from drivin every1 crazee with my moods)....love my family & frenz(even those i threaten to castrate)...and of course my locabelles..without em id b well a gone case minah(yuckk i know)..oh yeah n i absoluteli luuurve pina colada(from OJ)that thing is like....woosh baby..if iv got it..bah who needs guys man..but no no dun get me rong..i still love my boyfren(sssh dun tell him..later he yaya papaya)..hez one of the few rare peepz dat actualli can tolerate my nonsense(well most of the time)
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