mentally unstable

dont get it...

isnt it good that i "dont like him anymore"

isnt it good that im backin off

i mean ...girl tells guy she likes him..guy sez he likes sum1 else..

shouldnt the guy want the girl to back off??

well i admit i still like him but no way am i gna show it lah...

wen he walks past i try my best not to look in his direction or nithin

and well i guess unconciousli i tend to not "flirt" anymore

n well mother not wantin me to work animore means no more late nite outings

wic is gd/bad..i dunno...

gd cos well i also dunno y...

bad cos well lets face it..prob wnt b hangin out with him nimore

that will prob aid in the "get over _ _ _ _ _" process..

cnt help feeling this crappy tho..

and thinkin about the whole sky garden time n stuff..

oh well..as they say..memories are just that..memories..

thank god for world cup...n xmen 2

can "drool" over people like alonso, garcia and that guy playing pyro(xmen)...

posted by naddz @ 1:42 AM 0 Comments

my birthday list wants

*spain jersey*(with luis garica/xabi alonso/fernando torres or fransesc fabregas's num)
*argentina puma jacket*
*liverpool jersey*(wih luis garcia/xabi alonso num)
*brazil jersey*
*quiksilver/ripcurl slippers*
*ipod nano(black)*

well theres a whole lot more things but i juz cnt tink of nithin anymore..

the guy i like likes sum1 else...

oh well..at least i can still see him @ work

posted by naddz @ 10:33 PM 0 Comments

go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..go to hell..

& that goes out to the two asses that tottally pissed me off last night...this is another 1 of the reasons y i tink stayin single and not ever liking any1 is the best..no pain n gettin upset n crying..jadi lesbian sudah..

* this was written when i was upset n not thinkin strait..any feelings hurt is regretted...

posted by naddz @ 3:14 AM 0 Comments

argh..my poor blog hasnt been updated in like what..weeks..see..this is what happens when i involve myself too too much in my job..tho i realli love it..sure the boss prob realli needs an atitude adjustment but other than that its a fun place to work at..esp since my colleagues are pretty kewl..

as for skewl..arrgh..DDACP DDACP!!!!!thats like my dreaded module!!!it incorporates all the modules iv taken n hated to the core...CADM, ED, THermofluids 1 & 2, SOM n MF!!..i HATTEEEEE MF!!!bloody hell..i am one very dead girl arent I..heck that..iv got Human FActors..sumhow i tink ill like that..tell me again why i choze aerospace tech??hmm...

haha n yes..thats The Click Five playin in the background...just love this song..esp the part about every princess havin a knight *swoon*..haha yalah yalah im nuts i know..but cmon..i love the band..n the songs..n erm well the song kinda gets me thinkin of a certain sum1...not gona tell u who :-P.. in summary form..hez sum1 iv got a crush on..n well lets face it..my crushes on guys hav never lasted more than 1 day cos they usuali turn out to be well..the oposite of what i want..take ord guy for xample..haha..that was super funnilah..why did i date him again???anyway about this guy i like..well erm..haha..hez another sophan..no not chineselah..hez juz younger than me(his bdae is akan datang)..but well..even tho a lotta ppl are doin loads disturbin n teasing..im fine keepin it to myself..aka i aint gna tell him that i like him..i mean at 1st is was bcos he was well cute in a unconventional...alah..hez not the stereotype cute..hez like my kinda cute ok...n then well i constantli embarassed myself in front of him..like accidnetli droppin the contents of my make up bag..almost bangin into a door..cuttin myself on paper n scotch tape dispenser...typical me lah...n now..im actualli gettin to kno him n stuff n well..i guess i hvnt been able to talk myself out of likin him..i dont realli wanna do anithin cos well at least if he does nothin on his part(in other words he isnt intrested in me)..i wnt be all embrassed n stuf..ryt ryt ryt ryt..so im keepin in this way..

but it doesnt hurt to like sum1..(even tho it causes u to be all bleh n start listening to stupid happy songs bout stupid happy things)

posted by naddz @ 3:18 PM 0 Comments