Never say I love you
If you don't really care
Never talk of feelings
If they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
If you mean to break my heart
Never say forever
If you ever plan to part
Never look into my eyes
If you are telling me a lie
Never say hello
If you think you'll say goodbye
Never say that I'm THE one
If you dream of more than me
Never lock up my heart
If you don't have the key
L O V E - A Journey
Why hold someone back... when u know u don't love them...Why keep them to yourself... when u know you won't wanna have them? Why let them miss other chances...when they can have them?If you really don't love someone....let them go...hurt them NOW... not later...for a longer relationship builds stronger emotions...
A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love and two people.
Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.
Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time.That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved. Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person can ever have.And there's a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle,wild and short-lived and one that's tender and passionate,nurturing and lasts a long time. The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us,takes work because it's about keeping a relationship.
Loving someone takes effort. We have to be able to communicate with each other. Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop. Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed. Respect him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better. The power of true love to a person is undeniable. A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them. The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.
"Love is like an antique vase. It's hard to find, hard to net, but easy to break." Every day everywhere, people fall in love ... but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense! feeling of falling in love? I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words "I love you"... but more often than not, the truth is just I am IN love with you. There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship... where both were only IN love with each other. But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it,you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love. It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. Let your heart guide u. May you be blessed on your soul-searching journey = for your soul mate.
ARE YOU REALLY IN LOVE? ASK YOURSELF! Is this true love? Do I really love him/her? Or izzit just another infatuation? R U willing to give? Even though you may not get back the same amount you gave? R U cheating yourself? Thinking that you really love him/her and not just taking him/her as a substitute for your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend? Friends, let today be the day....... you truly understand love....... If after reading this and answering all the questions,you are very sure that you love him/her,tell him/her that. Let him/her know how much you love him/her and that you are willing to take the risks of being hurt by him/her in the course of the development of your relationship with him/her. This is a love that's sacrificial, R U ready for it? If you accept someone's philosophy that is simply their rationalisation to justify their failure, you accept their failures!"
**The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.** If you think something will make you happy, go for it. **Remember that we pass this way only once.**
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ok...for once i actually came on time for class...hell i was here even b4 the teacher..amazin ryt...funni thing is i took da train like later than the usual time...weird weird...mayb today da train xtra da fast eyy...ntah..i was konked out the whole time...but then once i reach skool i got a major stomach ache...crap...then miss 1st 5 minds of cad...in other words they all start doin the drawing thingy n i missed like a lot...thats y im like updatin now...damn bloodi fuckin bored sia...i mean im listenin to da guy but juz got no mood to do lah...oh yeah n guess wat...this com im usin now...juz guess who used it b4 me....guess guess....hmm ok herez sum hints...hez my ex n his name starts with H...clever....its Hafiz...yesk...i know...but what to do...ah well..at least i wont b seein his face today..oh wait...then again yah who cares...ryt now i hev to admit that i kinda sorta miss him..n by him i mean Sophan....hahaha...finalli mentioned his name here ah...haha..yesterday oredi kena marah by patna cos i didnt tell her that he n i got together...whoopsie...sorry baby....but then again at 1st i tot he didnt reali wan people to know...now he seems fine with it...hrmph men..weird u knoe...but hey...at least im done hatin em....hmm..todays friday..in other words ill prolly meet the dwarves later after skool..tinkin of skippin thermofluids but aint sure...got mc from yesterday remember...but i wanna go class(shockin i know)...n if i meet the dwarves oso for a while...makan or terrorise em for a while b4 i gota go down for werk...damn..if onli i wasnt gettin paid for it...ill so not go...but hell i need da money..no choicelah....wah..this is quite long...i realli am bored huh....hahaha....rabak rabak...talk bout updatin way too much yah...alah...oklah...better stop now..b4 this entry bcomes a freakin short story...
well..i didnt go to skewl jez now...damn temperature wuz like 39.6 sia...got 2 days mc but ill go skewl 2moro...dun wanna miss lessons...but know wad i miss...or more like who...him...hez off at camp...hmm..remember my last entry...well hah...on tues..i wuz juz hangin at home n tinkin bout what has happnd btwn me n him n well i kinda realised how my feelins are kinda well strong...ok ok i admit it...i tink i am fallin in "L" with him...but again i cant say it...ego lah....he wuz so sweet yesterday nyt n i realli realli wanted to say it but sumtin held me back..hell he actualli asked if i had any doubts bout "us"..hell i doubt me..the big screw up...but damn he wuz so nice bout it...the things he sed were true n well im glad that i gave the whole relationship thing a chance...if not ill realli b missin out on sumthin great...i.e...him...aww....nadiahs gettin all sentimental...i.e...phuke!!!hahaha...kinda weird how everything turned out between him n me...n here i alwez tot that he didnt even know i was alive...hahaha...nice one lah nad....ah well like they alwez say...things never ever turn out the way u plan huh...all i know is that im realli realli happy...i wanna say things between us is diffrent compared to me n hafiz or me n my other "relationships"..we actually talk about things...hev fun(alwez disturbin each other n stuff)..and well..he actually knows when therez sumthin rong with me...but iv yet to learn to actualli tell him...i guess i need to change my ways one day..when im with him i feel realli i dunno...i juz wanna wait till the right time to realli tell him how i feel...n i cant wait for his birthday...heh heh...aint gonna tell why till after da day...n no dun get any willd ideas ok...i still intend to remain innocent...n by innocent i mean stayin in da makeout stage...err..tink i let out too much now...
well im @ my aza's place now...along with zal,tim,firoz,martyn and reza...kinda bored actualli..theyre watchin crazy/beautiful now haha..thanks to me lah...haha but im usin aza's computer...boring ah....n they all juz ate n still cen eat...how they tahan sia...its amazing...hmm...i dunno if i should talk bout this but well i think id better...well iv yet to tell them bout zorro yet...y..well they remember how damn bloody upset n wrecked i was last october so naturally they wuld wanna screen the new guy like mad before letting me get in2 another relationship...n knowing them they wuld b realli realli realli syco this time...ah well...i tink ill jez keep this whole thing a secret for now...seriously i dunno if i shuldv told ani1 bout it..not so sure if he wanted to keep it a secret oso...ntahlah...he sorta used the "L" word yesterday...or wuz it today...thing is i cant bring myself to say it or nithin cos well...i hev no idea how i feel n if what im feelin realli is err love anot...i mean when i was with hafiz i was convinced what i felt was love..i guess well it wuz 1 sided...but with him...well so far its been great plus well i guess im openin up a bit more..cmonlah i told him bout my theory bout my mom n dad(dun ask onli shalin knows bout it..sorry peoplez)..n well i guess..maayb juz mayb as time grows by my feelins will grow...well i know it is oredi but im still holding back...juz a knee jerk reaction...i know i shouldnt cos he didnt do anything to me to make me wanna hold back but its just natural for me...my wall is still up thou its slowly comin down...i juz dun wanna rush in2 anythin too fast n b too into the relationship to the point that if it doesnt work out then i bcome a wreck again...that wuld b a complete disaster...god this is so unfair...hell i know how i feel and how i shuld b but fucklah...actually im listenin to clay aiken's measure of a man...n well sumhow i feel like thats what im doin...sorta expectin him to prove himself when he doesnt need to...i feel like im being unfair to him and he doesnt deserve it...n well yesterday at the gig i dunno y i felt a bit bad when i took pictures of akash's band..i mean...i did drag him all the way there to catch my ex crushes band perform n i wuz takin pictures...any normal guy wuld get ultra jealous..yet he was so cool about it...n yet im still like this...what is wrong with me sia...well i juz need time i guess...hopfulli it isnt too late or nithin...
ello...juz came back...sorta watchin nip/tuck now...anyways today turned out good in the end...no more moody..but i feel so bad that i caused him to go home late n sorta miss his sisters bdae cos i sorta got him in2 goin to fort canning with me..n dun get any wild ideas oki..we juz spent the whole tym talkin...wuz nice actualli...thou i almost oso burst into tears again when i was tokkin bout my dad n bout hafiz...thank god i didnt....nwez...at least now after tellin him how i felt bout the whole me being scared of gettin hurt again i feel better...not so scared to take that chance after all...hey nothin ends up da same so juz see wher it goes....oh crap my eyelids damn heavy now...wanna go sleep oredi ah...well unless hez onlyn ah...heh heh...n well i wont b goin for da gig tomorow unless azmi wants to go...if not stay home n sleep onli ah...
well im feelin a bit better now..dunno y da hell i cried juz now...crazy right...cry for no good reason....lucki thing he didnt see me crying like a big goon jez now...if not ...yikes!!!well my class is almost finished..i hope..im gettin bored outta my freakin mind sia...so cen die....wonder how the rest can pay attention...the lecturer reminds me of the jigglypuff teacher though...hahahaha...evil ryt me..haha...but seriousli he does...me listenin to rooney now...damn theyre realli good...4got how much i like em till now...but of coz my fav song is still "blueside" n 'stay away"..anyways....n well i realli wana apologise to him if i wuz bein a bitch to him but malas ah...ok ok baby if ur readin this im sorry if i was acting like a heinous bitch juz now...pmssing...anyways...done...ok...bruised my ego enough...alamak hez comin here...n he tokd to me...actualli didnt blieve dat i ate...goon...i ate soo much thats prolly y i phuked anyway..but oklah..dun feel dat sic nimore..now i juz wanna pee...nice 1 lah...
im in such a freakin bad mood...dunno y...the moods ah...pmssing...i just don get it sumtymz...i cant tell anyone how i realli feel cos well its not like me...im just not that type...hello remember crab n the shell...i feel bad for being like this...cos he has no idea y im bhavin dis way..hez prolly wonderin y im actin this way...ah well not my problem...im feelin crappy so leave me alone...urgh...its cold too...then again shuld blame myself for wearin a sleeveless top...bodoh sangat kan...alah craplah..malas aku nak update lagi....
hellew all my beautiful people...how are you...well iv got news....huuuuge well not reallilah...juz news...as of 20th july im no longer single(sori matt)...me n zorro got together...long storylah...anyways...it felt well weird..i mean i hev been single since like what 22nd october last year n yeah iv been dating but nothin serious...n no commitments...well i dunno if this is a commitment anot..wait im his girlfren...duh obviously im not allowed to date others...not that i mind but like..thats a far cry from da past few months...hell i dont care...im happi...yes as happi as i was when i was still with hafiz...well...unlike da last time im gonna try to b less moody n i mean try...cant blame me if i do get moody once in a while u know...n well...i dunno...im happi but this time i wont trust the hope that it will last cos sumhow with me nothin ever lasts so im juz gonna njoy it while it lasts n well if im lucky then i myt even get to enjoy it more than a month...haha...hey..its not that im sayin i dun wan it to work its juz hell im not xactli good at this stuff..n im damn good at screwin things up esp relationships....but ill try...hey..its all up to fate not me...nwez me in class now n my lecture started oredi..gota go...cyaz..love u all...n woohoooo!!!!!!sori just feelin happy...
god!!!i wonder why da hell i was such an idiot in sec 4...its been over a year since me n ihsan broke up n yet he still wont leave me alone...he jez called me singin da same old tune..im so sick of this...hell it doesnt get to me but hell it bloddy hurts...n i dont know whats with my mom oso...ah fuck the whole world bloody sucks..my life sucks...i suck...n im not telling zorro...i cant bring myself to risk another heartbreak...juzt cant...i realli realli like him but i just cant bring myself to tell him how i feel...a part of me wishes he wuld juz come out n tell me..well if he likes me...but i know that wont happen..i mean cmon...him like me..hah..thats dumb...well...im hopin i get the courage to ask him out 2moro cos i realli wanna go out...argh..ihsans callin me again!!!shit shit shit!!!
heyy..ok ok i know looong time since i updated ryt..so sue me..i have a life ya know...niwez...herez an update...1 im over hafiz(FINALLI)...2 sorta like akash but not that much...3..i lost weit!!muahahahaha..thats wad evry1 sez...aparantli im more jambu nowlah..oohla..no wonder matt's after me now..but hell im not intrested..sure he'z hot n has da nicest eyes in da whole world but no chemistrylah...but heh heh i m well intrested in sum1...sum1 younger than me...(i know i know..whats wrong ah)...but hez realli nice...wev been smsing(or sumthing like smsing) for like a week plus n we went out once...n well lets juz say the only time i ever felt comfortable hangin with a guy i like wuz when i wuz with hafiz...well ill update more on him but now back to other things...surayah is gonna transfer to moe..shez takin her masters n gonna bcome a guidance councillor..cool huh..m gettin da new vios next week...whoopie(sure i hate the colour but heck got car)...what else huh..hmm well im gonna mayb cut my hair soon or dye it again or sumtin..juz sick of it...thou patna sez its nice...n mayb next week me wanna go cheri cos they got closin down sale...prolly wanna get a new dress or sumthin...or those tie tie sandals...damn i need clotheslah...ok..im bored of typin now....update soon...kisses all around...n patna sweetie..i hop u had fun today...happi 18th bdae(1 day we go smoke sisha without diana ok ;p)...love ya lots...
