my grandmother passed away.
been strangely calm about it...
broke down only atfter biddin her a last goodbye...
feels weird not havin her aound
yet i know she is in a better place and at least isnt suffering anymore..
will pray for her and im so grateful to sean for comin over and din,lyn,hairi,ct and my other frenz for their condolenses...
in class now...wearin a baju kurung!!!yes nadiah bte...whatever his name is is actualli wearin a baju kurung...fuckin amazin isnt it...well i didnt get to wear it at all since the time i got it last year(due to my darn job at gelare) so myt as well use now..gota admit i dun look like a clown thou..yesterday was my clown day...tshirt with like a long sleeve shirt n a bloody blazer(wad to do..lecturer tinks hes frm antartica)..went out for dinner with dan n the guys yest...went home 1st tho...then tm..got like 2 reeeeali nice tops frm 77th street at get this..20 bucks...no not each...20 buckeroos for bothee!!!wheeooo...talk bout powerr ryt..now im still like full thanks to the overdose of kerang n stingray...saw fir who happend to b werkin yest...looked cute as usual...hehz...wondered to myself wad da hell happend n almost almost almost smsed him...what da hell mayb i shuld juz sms him huh...nah..better notlah...kinda wanna eat ther on my bdae tho..sounds crazy ryt...dunnolah..see 1st..ok lah..gota pay attention..chalo
@ the lib now..since im like waitin for adam to b done with class myt as well update ryt..went to smoke juz now @ back gate with him n heraimy(da 1 frm dunman)..n saw hafiz @ c2..call me nuts but well my heart did a triple somersault wen i saw him..n wen we were smokin he,vijay,ronaldo n andre came out n heraimy noticed me glancin @ em over n over again..wad da hell is up with that..im not like dat in class with sophan..but y do i alwez keep goin back to that..him..hell im totalli over him n im happy now..but part of me misses him..a lot..how i felt when i was with him..its just i dunno..different i guess..i know im crazy..guess part of me still does kinda sorta want him arnd..well on the brite side..after next semester..he'll be gone and i wont have to feel this way each time i see him..i hope..right now i dont even know how im feeling..or what im feeling..
durin the whole hafiz thing i so tot he was like the one..(stupid i kno..hell i was 17)..tot him n me was like a sure thing cos i never felt that strongli bout sum1..then came sophan...n well yes i did have feelins for him but i never saw it as sumthin dat couldv lasted forever..like it was bound to end sooner or later n it did...
i feel sick,nausea overcomin me.
STOMACH CRAMP!!!
why does being a girl alwez have to involve some form of pain.sucks you know cos it hurts so darn bad. didntgo to school again today.not feeling to wonderful since friday. hate being sick. then again who does eh.
this past week has been so full of colour haha.painted my hall on sat n sun..it has now turned into a beeeeutiful shade ofblue(with 1 sole yellow wall)...so nice..thanks to mr reuben,taufiq n sean who helped paint..but one thing dat baffled me was ho much food we ordered on sat n yet finishd ...2 large pizza's,2 garlic breads,16 pieces of kfc chicken,2 large popcorn chicken,9 pieces of nugets,2large coleslaw,2large whippd potato n 1 salsa nachos..habis!!!amazin ryt..n oni me,mom,gdad,yati,mr reuben n taufiq ate..yet habis..wowie..then sun sean n fiq came to hlppaint the door frames..gna paint ceilin this sat tho...ni1 wana help..haaha..
been eatin loadsa bagels lateli..(yeah overdose of the oc..)but seriously..the one frm coffebean is darn good..had a pretty strange dream yest..was at the tm basement n goin up the stairs when fir juz came up to me n like pounced on me..wad da hell ryt..dunno y i keep dreamin bout the most unlikely people...fir,hafiz,taufiq...its strange sia..i admit..i still wonder wad happnd with fir but oh well..things aregoin pretty well now so i dun realli care..
