ok so it lasted a total of 1 hour..but i still had fun..n damn..i just noticed his tongue piercin..hell yeah..he has a bloddy tongue piercing..damn..this guy gets more appealing by the minute..haha.. what..let me date a really tru bad boy for once..n hey..unlike sum people i used to date who pretend to be the perfect boy that every mother would love but actualli is the biggest jerk off that ever walked this earth(not directing it to the guys i dated before 2005) at least he lets his bad boyness show n doesnt pretend to be sum1 hez not..
juz now was still classic..."do u have 4 bucks..me wanna pump petrol"..hahaha...yes im crazy in like so sue me..gosh..i dont know how whopping happy i am to even overlook the fact that our date was a part flop..oh well..theres alwez another day eh..heck..
hmm..notice how short my blog has become..haha..cos i deleted so many posts..haha..blog went to crash diet ah..figured..why keep posts of a certain person who doesnt deserve to be mentioned..talked to helmy yest n hes right..its time to let go of things..esp those that don't matter n prob never did matter..im different..n better now..n definitely happier so time to erase the bad memories away..from my blog n my life..n i did that..u know that feeling u get whenever ur deleting something u dont wanna delete..well when i was deleting..i never got that feeling..n i alwez got that feeling whenever i deleted things to do with sophan(which i saved sumwher else first juz in case)..n this time..i didnt have a backup..i actualli smiled after that..hell i am smiling now..kinda wow.. nwe..xams are cmin..yippie..
me& lach
this is me at the airport..at like 2 sumthin...haha..thanx to dinesh n his sabo-ing..
i met him!!!yes cute cap guy from dinesh's ord that was sooo starin at me..n damn..hez a fox!!!haha we watchd final destination 3...haha..will giv details later but here are some minor hilights..
me not fln awkward arnd him n his frenz
him feedin me that nugget in at the wdlands mcdonalds
puttin his cap on me in the cinema
feedin me the weird damn pedas sweet
juz feelin comfortable talkin n flirtin with him
him puttin on the helmet for me when i was like "hello i can put on a helmet myself u kno"
me actin like a paranoid good when i had to get on his bike
actualli gettin on the bike
gettin off the bike n lookin even stupider..
freakin cos i didnt wanna run into that woodlands guy i used to date cos we were at the esso near his house
the super fun ride back..
but too bad..we were gna hang out more..but oredi got 3 missed calls from mom...he was all "wait till 7 missed calls ah" haha..urgh..god.iv never been this gaga since well sophan..wheeee
OOH BTW Happy Birthday shout out to Zhofry & Aerfi..
today was the last day of skewl..my last day as a 2nd year..well im supposed to be graduating by like this sem but due to me being a dumbass n my slipdisc im still stuck in np for another year..but somehow..id rather be taking photos with the whole ashwin,ivan,charles,din,chloe lot..i realise that with them iv actually made friends n theyre more human..sure this batch is the most havoc but i still love being part of em..ill b so proud to graduate with them and celebrate that graduation with them..
but sumhow..i still miss being with ivans class..n no its got nothin to do with sophan..juz now..they were outside the room..n of all things..they bought ice cream n were eating there..haha..they got "teh tarik", "bandung" & get this.."tiger beer" flavoured ice cream..tho i didn t kno it was tiger beer untill after i ate a smidge of it..nice one ryt..accidentlah..i loved the teh tarik one tho..n at the end..the guys culdnt finish it so me, louis n kar yin had to divide n conquer the remaining bandung ice cream..haha..nick was like "wer gona get u drunk on tiger beer ice cream till u admit u miss us"..haha nick..trust me..i dont need to be drunk to realise how much i miss u guys..arrgh..i wana cry siah..i wish i could spend my sem with them again..sure i do love this class..n hangin out with them but that class was so united n it felt like a family..ok ok..im gonna cry now..*sob sob*..
oh well..1 more semester to go..which i so gota work my ass off for..n then attachment..counting the months till i graduate..tho walking away from this life is pretty sad..still remember everything from the day i came..well mayb from the day i joined ivan all..from june 2004 till now..time flies pretty fast huh..kinda scary..
ANYWAY...to all of my friends who are graduating this semester, Congratulations, good luck n dun u dare forget me ah..esp Ikah, Akash, Lyn, Helmy, Bryan, Fathrul & Muku..im gna miss seeing you guys..*cheers*
oh yeah..Happy Valentines Day peepz..
went out with lach,dinesh n nur(din's best bud n guy lach is tryn to set me up with)..watchd jarhead whic was pretty funni tho i didnt like the ending..then had dinner at bugis..fun..n the guy is pretty cute too..but a tad quiet tho..think i myt b goin out with him 2nyt..dunnolah..told din that despite his gd points hez not "u kno hu"..n he was like "get over it"..trulah..waitin arnd like goondu n not havin a life(tho i do hev 1 ok!!)isnt gonna help..so yeah i will go out with the guy..no harm ryt..oh n the khairul guy IS the cap guy haha..din n herman met him the day he smsd me..thats how he got my number..he works as a pizza hut rider(i was sooo right)..haha but damn..that guy was realli realli cute..the kind i like lah..a bit of the bad boy thingy goin on for him..tho the hair lah..the whole blonde streak thingy..but heck tht..hez still so darned kewt..haha..haha so much for not wantin to bother bout guys ah..oh heck that..im 19(for like 4 more months)..gta njoy n hev fun ryt..
besides..i think its time i move past this whole sophan thing.no point.
i love how he used to care about me..
how he used to make sure i ate..n get angry if i didnt,
how he got so mad at me when i put my job ahead of myself when i was at gelare,
how he took care of me during the class chalet,
how he would listen to all my probs with my mom n juz make me feel better after that,
how i knew that i could always count on him,even when we werent together
how he would call me baby or sweetheart or honey,
how he knew how to handle my mood swings..
how he used to tell me to pretend to b indian n him chinese whenever we were huggin in the train n a makcik came in,
him gettin iritated with the autocad lecturer cos the guy was a prick,
his obsession with linkin park n the whole drumming thing(like gettin drumsticks when he didnt even have a drumset),
his whole triathlon thingy n semangatness bout goin gym,
how sweet he was when i thought i lost my wallet at cjc there(padahal it fell on the road),
loved how he wanted for us to work together..tho we never got that chance,
loved those times in class where he would try to make me pay attention or do work instead of switchin off n bloggin(which never worked),
that time we both wore the transformers tshirt n i so pretended not to know him,
how he told me he didnt care how i looked..he juz wanted me to be healthy when i was crzy obsessed with my weight issues,
his laugh,
how he did look like a frog sumtymz,
his weird weird hair(which looks pretty damn good now),
how much chilli sauce hed alwez use(a lot!!),
the fact that he did remember when our anniversary was..even though i thought he didnt,
n the fact that shaikhah said that i seemed happiest when i was with him..
and well she was right..
i know its way too late for 1 last try..doesnt hurt to hope ryt
played soccer with ashwin n the guys yesterday..had loads of fun..tho i realised my goalkeepin skills sooo need improvin but im not bad lah..n today was a pretty good day..skewl was normal n went to check out the technofair..hung out with helmy..supposed to be like ten minutes but i stayed till like 6 plus..ended up goin to the prize presentation cos i helped him take pictures..got to see akash's project also..haha still remember that helmy was the loon who kinda helped with the whole sophan thingy..(there goes my plan of not mentioning him at least once)..
OH YEAH..ok remember i saw this totally cute to the max guy @ the ord parade..well i think he msgd me..tho me n lach think mayb the guys are tryin to trick me cos they knew bout him..i honestli dunno but see lah..but somehow gettin the msg didnt affect me as much as seeing sophan did..haha..i totalli needed to go toilet n when i was walkin i saw ivan n him...he looked so cute..cen die..i kno i kno..i shouldnt b stuck in the past like this but..urgh..
went out with ikah after that..we had dinner at tamp..then hung out outside starbucks(no place to sit insidelah)..saw the cute starbucks guy haha..but realised he has an even cuuter fren..but nah..i still only have eyes for one guy..
damn..im tired..juz got back from hangin with lach,dinesh,teng2,her bf n ikah at simpang..n we met shalin n family..probabli pissed at me cos im alwez blowin her off but iv got time for lach n ikah..hecklah..
nwe..dinesh's ord parade was oryt..saw this cute guy..who kept lookin @ my direction..hell lach noticed cos he made it so darn obvious..think it was a fren of his camp mate..herman..who was like "is that nadiah nxt to lacheemi??" when they were marching haha..lame sia..how they kno i exist also i dunno..n saw this guy who looks sooo much like nazir n guess what..his name is nazri haha..wdf..what are the chances ryt..
b4 that was in sch..hung out in the cadm room with din for a while then went back to the aeromod room..left skwl with charles..he went to the gym..then met lach n went to the ord thingy..nwe..sophan was in the room with din when i was there..yikes..tho i did like bein able to see him..
i did it!!!did what??
ok well heres the long story..all this while iv been wantin to msg sophan on msn but lets face it..im a humongous crazy chicken..haha..but yest well..i told myself that i had to do it by 9 pm..n well i did..finally eh..n it was nice..chattin to him..n no..its not like im xpectin anithin romantically..truth is..i love bein single..for once in my life im not involved with any guy at all..n its kewl..hell each time i meet sum1 i know they alwez ask who im involved with n now i can say that theres no1..n realli..theres no1..no1 at all
im actualli lookin forward to spendin my valentines alone..again..ok sure i had a date last year but this time im not even gona bother askin u kno hu out...n now i actualli do go out..i used to be the whole "no bf so stay home" but now..no bf so all the more go out!!haha..even being the third wheel with lach n din is fine cos i dont feel like one..unlike those times with shalin n pat all..that felt weird..sure mayb i would like to spend it with sum1..but unless its sum1 that means a lot to me nah..i dont wanna spnd it with any random guy..
n i was tellin lach..that ryt now..i dont want any guy..like taufiq..i realised i was forcin myself to move on with him..telling myself our relationship meant sumthin bt deep down i knw it didnt..we were frens with benefits..hell we were more benefits..not even frenz..i admit lah..i just didnt wanna be alone..n better be with sum1 than b alone ryt..i was living in a god damn lie the entire time..now i realise that its better to have the real thing than settle for sumthin that will onli keep on hurting me..
now im glad me n sophan are frens n talking..yes a part of me would be estatic if we ever got back together n i know this time i wont mess up like i did last time..but well only time will tell..for now..im gonna live in the moment..be happy with what iv got..my family..frens that drive me nuts but i still love to bits..n everything else i have goin on for me..
ok..very hyper ryt now...haha..why..had a totally fun sat..
went to skewl..n since charles told me he had his etiqute thingy i asked if we could meet a while after that..so he showed up at the at booth n i passed him his present..he was with sum gal n i seriousli thought she was the girl he likes..ok so i admit..i was partially..sorta kinda jealous..but i was so xcited bout lach cmin over i didnt realli think about it..n was happy that he seemed happy..then while waitin 4 lach 2 reach skewl..i saw sum of soppz hip hop dance ppl..i smsd him askin if he was dancin n he said hed b dancin arnd 2-ish..which was great..cos by the time lach n dinesh came..went to the fms booth thn i grabbed my bag,changed n went to the atrium i managed to see him dance..say bye to him*hehz*..he looked so cute n da boy can dance siah..
annyway..charles smsd tosay the shirt fit so i asked(2 b kaypo) if the gal was the gal..but he replied sayn it wasnt..n we smsd a bit more...the guy darn semangat sia..cct mon n he stdyn..i didnt even study n i passed..what more he..crazyy..nwe..lach n me went back 2 her place n i went to bedok with her mom 2 get flowers 4 her aunt n when we were at watsons..these 3 mats stood outsyd the store then followed us arnd..freaki siah..kept askin for my num.gd thing we met her mom n lost em..n damn bedok has a lotta stores that sell nice clothes n shoes sia..even converse..like mine that were stolen yay!!!..but seein lach n dinesh..made me think of when i was with soppz..the whole bicker n stuff but still nutz bout each other..flt weird..n a bit upset..but i was ok...
went ovr to her moms shop..had dinner n juz hung out n talked..had loads of fun sia..jus wish..well oh nvm..anyway..had this super weird dream last nyt..soppz was init..ok..heres the dream
the AT class was goin on a road trip..and i was partnering charles..n when we got on the bus i was looking out hopin soppz was goin..n well he was sittin in frnt of me..but i realised i didnt have my passport n had to go back home..n of all ppl..soppz volunterred to go back with me to look for it..n we found it..in my ripcurl bag..then when we were running to catch the flight..i woke.. up..wdf ryt..argh..
