mentally unstable

if ur alwez lookin for reasons not to be with someone u alwez find them..
at some point u should just let go n give your heart what it deserves..

posted by naddz @ 7:15 PM 0 Comments

How True

When she is in love, she will act both ways.
First, Shy and polite trembling to be near you.
Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you all the times.
She will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you.
It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable.
She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt.
In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac.
She is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you better be the one who start first.
She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.
She is like a musical note always change i! n tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depressed.
Other people may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".
When she is depressed, she will go out and look for things to make it up.
She loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help
you make money, save money.
She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.
She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk.
Cancer woman also influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating
woman.
She has a constant fear for many things.
She fears of not being smart enough,
not pretty enough.
Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy.
Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.
She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks.
She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a way to re-use it to re-use it again some day.
She is not a jealous type,but possessive.
The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit.
Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it.
She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out.
Once you leave, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally.
She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you.
If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K.
This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

posted by naddz @ 4:43 PM 0 Comments

OMG..

ok so i was just lookin throu my "who added you" list on msn messenger..n well im so used to not seeing sophans nickname but juz now guess what..he was on that list..so i guess that means well..he added me back!!!*ARRGH*(in a good way)..haha..n here i thought last sunday's email freaked him or sumthin..ok so i dont think he did it cos he still likes me or whatever..hello im not that delusional u kno(tho unconciously mayb i do)..n ok so i wanna msg him but besides "hi"..iv got nothin..damn..im so blanking now..hmm..well lyn tinks i should juz out n ask him out.."U crazy ah girl??!!!"..heh..not that i dont want to but cmon..i hvnt been out with this guy for over a year..hell this time last year he hated my guts..i cant juz ask him out like nothin ever happend..

well i thought that if i happen to see him during the open house when im having duty i myt just talk to him..if not ill juz msg him on the 10th of feb...why...cos he 1st msgd me on msn on the 10th of july haha..but knowing me..i probabli wnt do any of those cos lets face it im a chicken.. yikes..who knew..id b this well loco about him..now still..im hopeless la..

mom,gdad n adam hev been away for two days..mayb gona go out 2moro..hehe..with ikah b4 she goes to work or after work..dunno yet..dead boring at homelah..

gosh..its still registering..

*sophan added me back*..*grinz*

oh heck that..hey soppz..u wanna go out??

who am i kidding??

posted by naddz @ 1:36 AM 0 Comments

eeep!!!ok..so i went to skewl at like 11 plus..n todays fri so i knew got big chance ill see sop when goin class n mayb hafiz..but what i didnt count was bein stuck in the same sodding train as hafiz..i got 1 helluva heart attack..n hell my heart was racing when i got off the train..hell i was so scared my legs would give way when i was goin down the mrt staircase..n we even took 154 together..i was like "goddammitlah"..ok so i keep on tellin myself to mayb smile when i see him but my automatic reaction is to alwez look away n try to remain calm n juz ignore him..ok so now i dont act like a bumbling baffoon nimore but i was close..urgh..sumhow i knew if i saw soppz id be worse..

whats this week..me keep on runnin into the 2 guys i once was bonkerz abt..hell i was nutzo bout hafiz till like god knows when cos im completely over him..n sop..well i unconciously still harbour sorta kinda feelings for him..now why isit i can totalli remain calm n heck it when i see whatshisname or any other guy i like but not the other 2..i see sop n i have to try my hardest not to just go up to him n kissing him..i see hafiz n my legs turn into jelly that hasnt been frozen enough..

urgh..so this fren of mine says i should do sumthin bout my sop thingy but i erm i don want to..i mean what am i supposed to say to him "hi..remember me?the girl who said she'd wait for u no matter how long but still got together with another guy for almost 9 or whatever months n during that time even asked u for advice when she n the guy had problems..well guess what..i never actually stopped having feelings for u the whole time..n i know i hurt u last time..i just want u to know i still love u n never stopped loving u"..wdf..he'lll probabli have a fit or sumthin..there i go again..my whacked out brain at work

posted by naddz @ 7:45 PM 0 Comments

i think i should stop thinking to myself..like friday i thought to myself "hah if i see hafiz today that means iv seen all my exes in one day"..after i saw sophan..n who did i meet at blk 50 lift..hafiz..then juz now..i was in the blk 46 2nd floor loo n i was thinkin of the time we used to have autocad together..n like i just said to myself "skali hez havin cadm now n i see him ah"..n when i came out..guess who came outa the loo like 5 seconds b4 me..yes sophan..aiyo..i should realli shut up sumtymz..but i did like the fact that i got to see him..yes i kno sue me..

posted by naddz @ 5:55 PM 0 Comments

i have a new blog acc...am i gonna stop bloggin here..erm mayb..see 1st k...i linked up my new blog to this..but juz in case u goons cant see..heres the addy

http://doink-de-noix.blogspot.com

toodles...

posted by naddz @ 4:51 PM 0 Comments

saw soppz on friday.. ok so i saw the other guys 1st..walkinto 46..then when me n ash n dan were walkin to 50 i saw tk..then i saw farhan n i though "oh god i will so see sophan" n erm i did..acted like sum goondu n waved to him(tried not to smile so much if not hell think im mental)..ash darn evil..said he looked girlish..hell i think he looked hot..well to me lah..spent the 1st half of tf thinkin bout him..

nwe after tf i left skewl strait..wanted to wait for ash so cen take the car but i had the chalet so i had to cabot 1st..went home changed n stuff n went to the chalet..met up with eli n hung out n stuff..sat in the rm listening to the bsb song..n was playing with my mood ring..the one i had when i was still with soppz n every single thing just came back to me..i dont know why each time i listen to sad songs or think about memories that either make me realli happy or realli sad, he'z the 1 that comes to my mind..

the time when ivan found out n made it pretty damn obvious, the i said a thing to him(askin for his address n he goon had the cheek to say "home ah?"),1st time he msnd me n i got the shock of my life, the whole week of chattin each day but never talkin in class, the talk on friday where ivan n din were telling me to juz ask him out, helmy running up to him n farhan n sabo-ing me, me gettin another heart atack when he called while i was sleepin in the bus(when exiting the xpressway), goin for beybeats that nyt, him sendin me back to tamp haha, him readi my blog n wantin to kno hu i liked n not knowing that the person, "zorro" was him n me making up liking akash to cover up my crush on him, him suggestin us goin 2 skewl tgether, the girls convinced he liked me but me not blievin it at all, waitin for amp prac to start the nxt monday n him sayin sumthin bout him doin sumthin bout the "zorro" thng(wic got me pretty suspicious), the day asked me to b his gf n hw he did it(askin me "what if zorro asked you to be his girlfriend right now"), tellin me he noticed me the day of the orientation, the first time we went to fort canning n talked till he accidentli missed his sisters bday thigy, watchn sisters @ lido n him gettin iritated wth me predictin the story, spendin his "birthday" at the syfc n my period but no pad fiasco, watchin "irobot" after that even tho my damn neck hurt from sttin ryt in front, sttin at istana park n him "talking" to the cat, callin the cat "brother" and feedin it pretzels n popcorn, all the times in autocad when he would help me, forcin me to go class, hangin out in the library with him..fort canning, watching the notebook with me even tho we had common test the nxt day, the sentosa outing, eatin sushi n him stealin one sushi from the conveyor, the time i came back from KL n he never realised it still takin my notes for me n not noticin me sittin 4 places from him, long bus rides, meaningful talks, our stupid fights that will end in like 5 mins, how we made fun of the hafiz "rabak" thng, how he alwez knew when i was having a mood n knew that just huggin me or holdin my hand would make it better, how he knew me better than i knew myself sumtymz, how i alwez knew that he loved me he didnt say it much but he shwed it, how he made a blog account cos i asked him to, how his blog entries alwez made me smile, how much it hurt when we broke up, watchin shutter with him n him actualli gettin scared, the class chalet, the fight at the end, pretending that i hated him when all i thought about was him, that day months ago when i saw him n he actually adknowledged me and smiled..

no..this doesnt mean im not over him..i am..i just have a good memory n all these things are the stuff that made me feel all warm n fuzzy inside..

nwe..sat mornin had brekfst with taufiq cos he also cme for the chalet..we ate at the foodcourt n thn had hotcakes(i got craving haha) n then i headed home n he went for his drama thingy..no im not with taufiq n i dont think we'll ever b anithin more than frenz n sumhow im totally fine with that..i still care about him n i do have kinda sorta feelings for him but we'r better like this..just frenz..us in a relationship is like a timebomb ticking away..n besides i dont wanna get into another relationship anymore..dont wanna risk nithin nimore..

sumhow this can so be directed at him(soppz i mean)

Backstreet Boys - I Still

Who are you now
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

posted by naddz @ 2:35 PM 0 Comments